This Is Our Second Skin (Frerard)

20: Stage 4 Fear Of How Freaking Cute This Chapter Is

*above picture is of Frank playing guitar for Gerard*

Almost a month had passed since Frank had asked Gerard to be his boyfriend, and fuck - they had been the best four weeks of Gerard's short life, and everything just kept getting better as time ticked onward, each day spent with Frank was erasing more of Gerard's fears about them not being compatible, or Gerard fucking something up, because in all honesty, everything has been borderline perfect so far, and Gerard saw no signs of things going downhill in the future.

Gerard had been intimidated at first, especially with everyone's reaction to the fact that he and Frank had finally gotten together; Lindsey had squealed so loud, Gerard swore one of his eardrums had busted, and Rainne had hugged him so hard, Gerard's ribs hurt for hours afterwards. All of the attention had made Gerard uncomfortable, exacerbating his fears with all the added pressure, because everyone was so excited for them, and Gerard didn't want to disappoint them by being a failure of a boyfriend, but over time, the scrutiny and demands for details trickled off, and Gerard was left alone to try and figure things out on his own.

Actually being with Frank was much easier than Gerard had expected, and in a lot of ways, it was almost as if they simply added a more physical aspect to their friendship, because Frank had always been touchy, he had always called Gerard's pet names, but now Gerard felt comfortable doing it back, now Gerard didn't have to shove away his hidden desire to hold Frank's hand whenever he wanted, or kiss him, and even though Gerard was nervous about when and where he could do such things at first, he slowly got over his lingering insecurities and began to be more carefree.

Another worry popped into Gerard's head about a week into their relationship, and that was how clingy he was; he spent almost every day with Frank, if Gerard wasn't at work, he was with Frank, either watching movies, or going out to dinner, or just napping together, and they both slept over at one of their apartments without fail every single evening.

Even though Gerard could never get enough of Frank, he was terrified that Frank would quickly get bored of him, and that nagging thought had Gerard edgy and uncomfortable every time he called Frank up asking him if it was okay to come over.

Frank had a way of drawing things out of Gerard though, of getting him to talk, even when he was mortified of what he had to say, so it wasn't long before Gerard admitted his fear aloud, only for Frank to laugh in surprise before admitting that he wanted to spend every hour of every day with Gerard, and if for some reason he ever needed his space, he would make sure to tell Gerard, even though he highly doubted that would happen.

After that talk, Gerard calmed down considerably; he forced himself to stop analyzing every little nuance in their relationship, and much to his relief, he found that everything just seemed to click into place. He and Frank were made for each other, at least, that was how Gerard saw it, and their lives melded seamlessly together to the point that Gerard couldn't imagine an existence without Frank in it.

In fact, Gerard only had one complaint about their current situation, and that was Frank's stubborn refusal to have sex with him, even though they had already done everything but, still - Frank truly seemed to believe that they had moved too fast, even though Gerard did not agree, but all of his short dalliances with men had been mainly focused around fucking, so maybe Frank was right, but that didn't mean Gerard was happy about it.

Frank's reasoning behind it was sweet though, he explained to Gerard that he wanted to be a proper boyfriend for him, and he truly wanted to wait a bit to make sure that Gerard was comfortable with everything before they jumped into sex, and as much as Gerard wanted to tell Frank that he was one hundred percent ready to be fucked right now, he respected Frank's wishes, and they did still fool around at times, so that was enough to keep Gerard satisfied for the moment.