Firehouse 51

Chapter 5

Severides POV
Shay should be home any minute. Once she told me that we needed to talk, I started getting very nervous. I don't know what to think. I told her that I would leave shift early and meet her back at the house so now I just wait.

Shays POV
As we pull up the apartment I thanked matt for everything and to not tell gabby until I talk to severide. He said he wouldn't and that he loves me and is here for me. I replied the same way. Now the only thing I have to face is telling severide. Wish me luck!

No Ones POV

"Kelly, are you home?"

"Hey, hey, what's wrong?"

"I had a doctors appointment and I had matt take me because I wanted to surprise you with good news but I learned that there was some bad news with that also."

"Okay, what's the news? Good news first, then bad news."

"Funny, I said that exact same thing to the doctor. Anyways the good news is is that I am cleared for work and can start next shift."

"Leslie, that's great! I'm so happy for you!" Kelly said while hugging her

"And now the bad news."

"Les, it's okay. You can tell me anything. What is it?"

"It's the doctor, he said I'm never going to be to able to have kids due to where the beam hit me. I'm so sorry kelly, I ruined our only chance of having a child together. I'm so sorry."

"Leslie Elizabeth Shay, listen to me. None of this is your fault. I don't blame any of this on you for even a second. We will get a second and third opinion until someone tells us differently. We will have a child together one day, even if it means we have to adopt. Nothing is going to change that or how much I love you. We'll get through this together. Always, no matter what?"

"Always, no matter what. I love you Kelly James Severide."

"I love you too baby girl."

A few weeks have gone by and Leslie and Kelly have been trying every day for a baby no matter what the doctor said. They wanted a baby and they were going to keep trying. They weren't giving up. Shay had a couple false pregnancies so she was used to them by now. But this time, even her best friend and partner was starting to worry about her.

Dawsons POV
Shay has been very moody and her hormones have been all over the place lately. I know she's had two false pregnancies already, so she's just saying it's that, but I think it may be different this time. I also could be wrong to, I guess will just have to see.

In the Ambo (still Dawsons POV)
shay=italicized Dawson= bold

"Hey, shay? How are you feeling today?"

"Today has been okay, just another fake pregnancy waiting to be passed by I guess. Why, what's up?"

"It's just, are you sure that it's just another one of those fake pregnancies? You could actually be pregnant this time. Haven't you and severide been trying every day for a baby?"

"Well yeah, I guess. But listen, all five doctors have said the same thing and that is that I cannot have a baby or get pregnant. It's even turning into just for fun every day with him, rather than trying. I'm not getting my hopes up again just to be disappointed once again. Now please, out of respect and love, can we not talk about this anymore?"

"Yeah, of course. I just want to make sure your okay. I love you and your like my sister, I have to make sure your okay."

"I know, I love you too."

Shays POV
Ever since Dawson said that I could be pregnant for real this time, I couldn't get the thought off my mind. All i keep thinking is how amazing it would be to have a little severide or a little me running around calling us "mommy" and "daddy." I think I'm going to see if it holds up for another three days and if it does I'm going to see if we're actually pregnant. Part of me is hoping it stops by then so there's no chance of getting disappointed again, and part of me is hoping it keeps going and I am pregnant. I think severide is getting a little tired of this whole thing. I wish I could just give him a baby, because I'm afraid he's going to leave me if I don't.

(Still Shays POV)
Here it has been three days and the symptoms haven't showed any signs of decreasing only increasing. I think this is it, gabby and I went and bought a pregancy test and I took it. Now I just wait for ten minutes to see the result. But first I need to tell severide. I can't stop thinking about the possibilities that this could bring us and have a mini one of us running around. I hope it would be a- my thoughts were interrupted by severide telling me we needed to talk.

Severides POV
I have been such a terrible boyfriend lately. Every night around midnight I sneak out of the house, without shay knowing, to go out to drink at a bar with some buddies of mine. Except the other night I did something I regret so much. As shay and I were about to start our talk that was much needed we got a call to a apartment fire. These calls always come at the worst time, but maybe this one saved me from the hardest thing that I've ever had to do, and that is tell Shay what I did the other night.

Authors Note
Hey guys, I am so very sorry that I haven't been updating at all since july. Alot of things have happened recently and schoolwork has been piling up. Anyways, I hope this makes up for the lost amount of time. And please feel free to comment and vote and also let me know what you guys think severide should have done that he feels guilty about. Thanks guys, again I'm sorry!
-kelly:)