How did this happen

Moving Forward

I was now into my 12th week of pregnancy and I was glad the trial was done.
The only thing standing in my way was my morning sickness.
And the dreaded OB appointment.
So first thing in the morning I went into Liv's Office.
"Hey Rollins what up other than you being 2 and a half months pregnant.
"I wanted to ask you a favor."
"Sure, What's up?"
"I have my first appointment today.
"Appointment?"
"My OB Appointment"?
"Okay so...?"
"I was wondering if you would please please please come with me."
"Okay sure anything Rollins remember I'm always here."
11:30am- At doctors office
"Hi I'm doctor Adegler and I'm your OB for this pregnancy"
"Hi I'm Olivia Benson and this is Amanda Rollins".
I looked around and I decided I didn't like the machines.
"Okay so let's take a look."
She had me unbutton part of my gown so she could take her machine to feel my baby.
"Okay this is gonna be cold"
I held on to Olivia's hand and looked at the machine.
I saw a beautiful baby on that monitor it made me want to cry
And I started crying
"Amanda why are you crying this is supposed to be happy?"
"I'm not sad these are happy tears, I see a beautiful and healthy baby"
"Okay Mrs. Rollins your baby looks good I'll have you come in in 5 weeks and we can tell the gender but right now I would suggest getting some maternity clothes and keep doing what your doing. "
"Are we done?"
"Oh I almost forgot one thing"
"I have to ask you some questions"
"Ok "
I was nervous as to what kind of questions they would be.

First- Have you had any * activity since you got pregnant.
Olivia held my hand tight and reminded me to breathe
"What's going on here why are you telling her to breathe?"
She hasn't had consensual activity but she was.., she was raped.
Okay so that's all I need except I need to know who the father is.
His name Is detective Sonny Carisi.
We're detectives too we work with him.
"Ok thanks for coming see you in five weeks!"
When we were about to leave I stopped in the bathroom because of morning sickness
At the precinct
"Hey Liv how did it go with Amanda?"
"Good Carisi you two have a healthy baby"
"Okay guys Get back to work!"
I went back to my desk and started to finish my paperwork
For a minute i put my hands on my small little bump and breathed.
I've been trying to prevent morning sickness for a while and it helped
"Amanda you okay?"
"I'm fine just give me a minute"
"Everyone we have a case!"
I looked up and there was Olivia with a file.
We walked over to the table and listened
"Okay so.. Earlier this morning A mother was raped in her own house and she was pregnant.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe
I know it's similar to mine... But it's not the same guy
I think I'm gonna be sick
Too late I was going to be sick
"I rushed over to my trash can by my desk and vomited.
I felt a hand on my back and when I finished I looked up and saw Olivia with a worried look on her face
"Amanda are you okay?"
I stood up and faced her
"Yes I'm fine just a little morning sickness"
Because of course I couldn't really tell her what was going on.
We returned to the table and I couldn't stop myself from crying
"Amanda?"
"Please tell us what's going on."
"Ok fine"
"It's just that a woman got raped in her apartment and she was pregnant"
"Now look at my case"
"I was raped in my apartment, I'm not a mother but I was pregnant too.
"Oh"
"There's too many similarities and obviously I know it wasn't the same guy but..
"We get it"