Red Line

Part 6

I woke up when the sun was shining,Luke's room had 2 windows unlike the other rooms.
It was strange but I felt good,with all those terrible things I felt good and sat up
-morning
Luke's voice,for sure
-good morning Luke
-How was your sleep?
Then he was sitting right next to me,only inches of distance between us
-very well,and sorry for taking your bed it's nice of you to let me sleep in here
He only nodded and smiled a little bit
-Are you hungry?do you want something to eat?
-Sure
I stood up and he put his hand on my back to lead me,and I felt something,something strange and painful and wonderful at the same time,something new...!
The cafeteria wasn't really big but felt like it,there were so many people there I felt I'm gonna get lost
Luke showed me the way to Calum's table and left me to get food
-So look who just came!and Michael to be honest you look better today
He winked in the middle of his sentence
-morning Calum
-morning,how are you?
-better,like you said
-good,really good
There was another guy there sitting next to him,he punched Calum so hard I though he broke his bones
-stop flirting you Calum boy!It's not even a week you've broke up with your x!!
I was confused
-STFU Ashton it's not like that!
That guy,Ashton I guess smirked and said:
-he is gay
I really was confused
-O...okay!?
-I said shut up Ashton it's none of your business and btw I'm not the only gay guy here
-who is the other one?
I asked,too exited
-Um...Luke?and couple of other dudes!
Luke?was gay??!No way
-wow...
-wait are you?
-what?!
-Are you gay too?
What should I say?yes?no?
-I don't know
-WHAT?! you know the only thing a person can be sure of is his sexuality!
-well not me
-what is so exiting about gay guys?
Luke said right behind my ear,so loud I jumped
-well we were wondering if Michael is gay or not!
Luke's eyes got wide,he forgot to breathe for a second I guess,he looked Me right in the eyes
-Are you?
-what about you Luke?are you?
-I'm okay,boy,girl,it doesn't matter
-HUH!and don't continue to say only love matters!
-what?so you don't believe in love?
-no I don't!do you believe in flying dolphins?
Luke's face changed,like he was damaged,and unfixable
-maybe I do...
And with that,he left them,he left me with weird and gay guys there,not even telling why
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After breakfast I searched for Luke,everywhere,but he wasn't anywhere,so I found the way back to his-my room and as I guessed,he was there
-Luke?
-What?
-Um..sorry..?
-why?
-donno,maybe because I don't believe in love?
He turned,so he was facing me
-Why not?
-cause it's bullshit!there is no love in this world!it's just...I don't know...active hormones?
He walked closer and reached his hand to touch my cheeks and I felt like feeling heaven and hell at the same time
-don't tell me you were good at biology too
-I..I...
-uhum?
-I was...before 11th grade...
-good...
I tried not to look at him,but it was so hard,my cheeks were burning,my hands were numb,my eyes were closed
-Michael,listen...there was a reason I didn't leave you in the street to die...and I'm sure...it wasn't active hormones...
He took a step back and watched me,as if I am a ware and he is going to buy me,as if he is a hunter who wants to hunt me
But I was something else...
I was a pale boy repeating his sentence in my mind,trying to find something,to realize something,anything,but I couldn't,or maybe I didn't want to
-come on Michael,let's go talk with Eric,he is going to find you a job here
He was walking but all I could see was a shadow,getting far and I had nothing to do,but to follow him
Without speaking a word