Red Line

Part 7

When we got to Eric's room,I was doing my best trying to pretend everything is clear,so Eric was the one who started the conversation
-I've heard you are smart
-who said that?!
And then,that evil smile of Eric's was back;a really dirty smirk on his face
-first rule,I ask,You answer,and nothing else,understood?
-Y..Yes sir
That Evil smile,even bigger
-Good boy,so you would be in calculation room with Luke for couple of days,let's see how you can use that brain of yours!
I was going to ask calculation room to calculate what?but I just remembered,I answer,and nothing else
Luke was by the door,waiting for me,when we exited Eric's room,I was the one who started to ask questions this time
-I thought you said you don't work
-I never said that!
-You said you only help them!
-I do!!by calculating boring stuffs they are not interested in..!
-what stuff?
-It's mainly about distance
-aha?
He came closer and spoke in his lower voice,like he is saying something forbidden
-we kill them,we use guns,there is distance between the hunter and the hunt,this distance needs to be calculated..!
-Ok hold on now YOU are trying to scare me?
He stayed silent,I wish he had say yes..!
I saw our way back to the room,I wanted to be there,without anybody else but Luke,and talk,and ask,but he turned to another way
-where are we going?
-office
-your office?
-Ours
That office room had 2 tables and 2 chairs,and nothing more
-they put your desk here yesterday
-they were sure I'm not gonna argue about it?
-Mike,this in not about wanting,this is about being able to disagree with them,and you can't do that
-and why not?because they would kill me?no!I don't care if they want to kill me Luke!this is torture..I'd rather be dead than helping them kill innocent people
-Mike they are not innocent
-so?you guys are policemen?not wearing your uniforms?
-Mike you don't understand
-No Luke,you don't understand,you brought me here without asking me if I want to,you brought me to Eric's room,these are all your fault,and don't call me Mike please,I'm not your friend...
There was a deep deep silence before I understood how badly I just Hit him,how awful I insulted him
-Luke I'm sorry I didn-
-don't you dare say you didn't mean it Michael,just don't...C'mon I'll show you the way back to the room
He walked really fast,and when we reached the room he disappeared,and then again it was me and silence and darkness...
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I took a nap,since there was nothing left to do,but woke up with the sound of the door opening,I didn't speak,I should have thought,to say the best thing possible,to not hurt him again...
So I stood up,I saw him,he was fixing one of the posters on the wall,I thought,I though a lot but there was something that didn't allow my mind to work good,there was something inside me speaking of actions instead of words
The next thing I knew,I was hugging Luke from behind,burying my head in his shoulder,and whispering "I'm sorry" a couple of times
His heartbeat was fast,his breathes were slow,his reactions were complicated...!
Finally he let go of my hands and turned around to face me
-no Michael,I'm sorry,You're right,this is all my fault,I'm sorry I'm too selfish
-Luke you saved my life...
-you just said you'd rather be dead than being here...what's the difference...?
-No Luke I was sad,I didn't mean them,I'm sorry...
And I really was
-Michael I...I..
-what?!
-I...
-Luke what's it?
And then he hugged me,so fast and so tight
-Do you wanna go out?
-out?like where?
-come on let's go
He took my fist,dragging me with him
-Luke where are we going?!!
-Shhh...you'll see
There was a tiny metal door right behind the computer room,it was open and when Luke pushed it,I had to close my eyes because sun was shining right above my head,I couldn't believe,that was magical!
-I thought we are not supposed to go out
-this isn't out,we call it heaven...
-we?who?
-me and Calum and 3 other guys who know this way out
-Wow...Luke this is awesome...
As far as I could see was forest,the sky was bright blue and the trees were moving slowly by the wind,although it was sunny,the air smelled like rain
-Luke this is awesome...magical..!
-This is heaven Michael..
I couldn't say a lot,I was really shocked by the beauty of that heaven
-Let's go farther,if you want
-Are you kidding me??of course I want!!
-Okay..let's go then
This time I was going first,smelling the air and sensing the wind
We sat on a rock,I closed my eyes,not opening them even when Luke spoke
-I wish I had a camera
-camera?why??!
-to take a picture of you and show you how wonderful you seem when the wind pushes your hair back...
I opened my eyes,and I guess I chuckled
-now what's that supposed to mean?
He smiled,I felt his shyness,I felt it..
-nothing...
Then we got focused on the forest,again
That day was kinda the worst and the best day of my life