Red Line

Part 11

Ok so I'm sorry it's been a long time it's just that school sucks and I'm new in this country so I have a language to learn and every other thing....so yeah...here's the story
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-Mike come on we're gonna be late!
I wasn't paying attention,we were going back,we kissed just minutes a go,it was 9 pm. and we had the same bedroom...and I was a Virgin...I guess it was normal to be worried and somehow scared...
-Michael where is your mind?!!
I held his hand tighter and tried to smile
-It's here..!
-Is everything okay?Are you alright?Can I do something for you?I mean it was your first time and we are both boys and....I guess you are shocked...still...!
-yeah...
Suddenly,his face changed.
-Mike if you don't want this...
-I want this Luke I want this so bad please never say that again...but...I've never been someone's...someone's....
-boy friend?
-Yeah..I mean the most far I ever got was a really normal friend...!
-Well I know that...but if you are not comfortable with these labels and names,we won't use them,I won't call you my boy friend or anything and you too,so there won't be any labels...let's experience something new..?our own made maybe?
-Yeah great...but...can I ask you something?
-sure!
-Ugh...I know it's ridicules and I'm acting like teenage girls but,how many times have you done this before...?
-I have never!
-really??That was your first kiss too???!
-No well...I've been with some people but I've never really liked them...this much...
-okay,how many?
-what?!are you serious?who cares?
-I'm sorry but I do!
-okay fine,3!
-3?3 guys?
-and a girl...when I was 13...
-Oh...you were with girls at the age of 13??you're a bad guy Luke when I was 13 I Thought the only difference between girls and boys is the length of their hair!
I said to change the mood.
He started laughing so hard that he fell to the ground,holding his stomach.
-OH MY FUCK Mike you were so silly!!
-shut up I was 13!!
He stood up,trying to catch his breath.
-Okay,okay,let's go so they won't kill us the night that we kissed for the first time!
I knew he was joking but even the thought made me have goosebumps,are we going to leave with this fear our whole life?
-yeah...whatever.
When we got there,the back door was already open,but I didn't expect anyone to be there,I didn't expect Calum waiting for us there!
At first I didn't recognize him,he had a deep wound right under his eye and his cheeks were black.
I was the reason of that shit.
I tried to speak but Luke pushed me back gently and faced Calum,so serious.
-Yes?
-I just want to say sorry
-He won't forgive you bastard!
-why don't you let me just speak with him?ask him myself?
Luke turned to face me,and I nodded my head yes,so he moved a little bit and I could see Calum better,God he looked terrible..!
-Michael I'm so sorry I was drunk and I didn't know what I was doing so...would you forgive me..?being friends again?
I stayed silent for a moment,I knew I had to disappear after my answer.
-yes!
And I took Luke's hand,locked my fingers with his,in a way that Calum would see that,and walked to our room
I knew what his face was like when we got there,I didn't look at him.
-Yes??Fuckin yes??what's wrong with you??you forgive the person that was going to rape you?Are you even human??
He was shouting
-You can say that in a lower voice Luke...
-NO!FUCK!
-He has enough pain and is enough feeling guilty right now,and with the way you treated him,he is not going to touch me anyway,never ever.
-Oh and now I'm the bad guy?
-Ugh Fuck,Luke you're not the bad guy stop shouting!
-fine!
He started putting off his shoes,I didn't want this night to be ruined,I should have done something..
-I'm sorry...
-Don't be fuckin sorry cause you didn't do anything
-I'm sorry I made you mad but he was going to brake completely if I would say NO and he knows that I am with you now so...
-I just wanted to defend you...
-I know Luke and thank you...really much
He looked at me and slowly leaned in,I got closer to him and he kissed me,so fast I didn't even had the time to close my eyes
I thought for a second that,that was it,but then he kissed me again,with more pressure and longer and minutes after that,we were laying on his bed,kissing so hard like we would die without the kiss,I never knew that I was pretty good at..kissing..!!!
Some minutes after that I felt his cold hand under my T-shirt and I remembered;
Kiss,night,bed,Virginity!
At the same time I thought about all of these words,and I understood.
I was scared,and I didn't want to panic in Luke's hands and faint...again!!
So I stopped,slowly so he wouldn't think something has happened.
He was breathing so fast and loud that I said everything in a higher voice so he would hear me.
-Luke...um..
He opened his eyes,worried
-You okay??
-Yes...but...I don't want everything to happen so fast...I want us to go slow...can we..?
-Oh...yeah that's better...okay..okay..just one more kiss
And he leaned in and kissed me again passionately ,I concentrated,I heard my heart beat when his lips were rushing on mine,I felt his blood coming up to his face,I felt our whole bodies getting mixed and our hands going numb,our eyes opening and closing repeatedly and the sound of our breathes making a beat in the background....
he locked his hands around my waist,kissing the side of my neck gently couple of times before we both were deep a sleep on the same bed,not even taking off our clothes.
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The next morning I woke up by the cold air hitting me,the space beside me was empty and there was a note on the wall:
"Mike,there was an emergency,we all went there,just go take your breakfast and come back to the room,you don't have to work today,take your time for decorating the room,you can change my thing's places too ;)
See ya in couple of hours
-Luke "
I did what he said,took my breakfast and came back,there were only 5 other guys there,I guess everyone was gone,I wondered what kind of emergency it could be...
After having my breakfast I started decorating the room somehow,I didn't change the posters places,just added mine,the whole time thinking about Luke,at the same time I was worry for him because I knew their job was dangerous,but I was upset because he was gone the day after our first night,he once said he is not that important yet,couldn't he stay?
It was 3 hours later that I heard the doors of the place being opened,I went out of the room,waiting by the door,but he didn't come.
I started walking in the pit searching for him but I didn't find him in the crowd.
Then I saw some men dragging somethings in.
Funerals.
FUCK
-No no no no!
I said to my self,trying to relax,but it was impossible.
I started shaking when I felt 2 hands covering my eyes,But soon I recognized the familiar coldness of the hands.
I took his hands and kissed them slowly,trying to catch my breath at the same time
-you scared me to death
-I'm alive!!
I turned around and I couldn't believe what I saw,He was as white as wall,pale and skinnier than ever,having wounds on his upper lip
-wtf??!
-I'm alive Michael...
-Yes but you look terrible what happened?
-shhh...let's go.
When he locked the door he opened the zipper of his jacket,his T shirt was covered with blood,he pulled it up carefully,there was a really deep wound there near his stomach
I smelled the blood and felt like fainting.
-WTF Luke what happened to you??!
-It was a knife...
-who did it?
-One of the bad guys from the other side!
-Don't speak like I'm 5 years old tell me what happened!
-Michael...I can't...I'm sorry it's not safe for you to know!
-WHAT?!
-sorry I won't tell you...
I started walking through him,getting used to the smell
-okay we would talk about that later,where is your first aid kit?
I put bandages on his wound trying not to push hard,I could tell he had pain but he wasn't going to admit it.
When I was finished I went to the bathroom to wash my hands and Luke was speaking calmly:
-you are an angel...
-shut up
-okay a super hero maybe?
-I said shut up Luke I'm Michael.
-okay...You're a Michael...cool!
He started standing up and I ran to him
-wow ow slow down why are you standing up?
-so I can kiss you!
-No you can't do that with a wound right beside your stomach!
-I can do what ever I want!!
And he started getting closer,I wanted to stop him but I couldn't because there was a wound that didn't like being pushed at all.
So he came and kissed me on my cheek,staying in that position for some seconds and then again walking to the bed to sleep
I let him,what else could I do?
I sat in front of the bed,watching him and not watching him
He was Luke,the person I like,but he was in pain,which  made me feel pain too.
So I started doing anything but watching him
But then I heard him getting up,he had a serious face.
-Michael?
-Yes?
-I should not tell you but...they will take you with them,tomorrow...
-what?where?!
-learning session...
-learning what??!
I asked,probably so confused
-how to...kill...