dear ashton ;; ashton irwin a.u

and i wish i was back home next to you

tuesday october twentieth, two-thousand-and-fifteen

dear alaska,

i'm sorry i haven't written to you in a while, the lads and i have just been so focused on the new album coming out on friday. have you heard any of the songs? i'm gonna be completely honest here, but 'she's kinda hot' is about bryana. i was supposed to sing the entire song but that would've made it too obvious.

it's about her because she always bitches when i sleep in. she is always screaming when she's calling her friends. she is always saying i've got low self-esteem. she has tried to put me on meds. and the one that hurt the most, was her saying that i've got crazy dreams. and sometimes a feel like i'm going insane, or that i'm going to zayn. yet again another reference from the song. not the zayn part though.

i feel like i'm going to zayn - leave her - because, i just don't know. she really isn't who i thought she was, and i'm sure you've got that done from the amount of song references i put up there. it's not that i'm not happy with her - because i am - it's just. she's not you. and she never will be.

dammit. i miss you so much. words can not explain how much i miss you. and all i want is to be home next to you. god damn, every eleven-eleven i catch i wish, i fucking wish that i was back home next to you.

your's truly,
ashton irwin.

//

the zayn reference i'm laughing.

don't get butt hurt because of that.

sorry for any spelling + grammar mistakes.

-kenny