Little Imagines (Rated R)

Mine, Yours, Our Baby *Three*

"After all these fucking months, you do realize I am 5 whole months pregnant with YOUR child right?" I asked trying to process all this bullshit that's going on. I don't even think I should allow him to explain anything to me. Anything he'd have say to me is utter bullshit honestly.

"I admit it, I chose the wrong time to shut down and not talk to you. I want to fix that though." he whispers. I sigh and step to the side. I may as well give him a chance to explain, besides that's all I've been wanting is an explanation. "Sit on the couch, I'm going to make myself some tea. I have to be calmed for this fuckery, I'm about to hear."

"I actually wanted to say something that day. I just didn't know how to. I felt excited because I could be having a son or daughter. I just couldn't breath and I wasn't able to grasp reality." he says, keeping a calm tone of voice.

"Yeah, so let's leave me, myself out here pregnant, and wondering how the fuck I'm going to do this. I'm glad you've had your 3 months to think, I am honestly. Sitting here telling me how you felt or feel right now doesn't fucking help me." I reply in a dead tone.

"I understand that but hear me out. I tried come over to your house but your mom said you'd moved. I thought you were gone, but it took me a while to remember where your job was. I tried to find you through neighbors but no one would tell me anything. So I called yesterday, you didn't answer." he sighs.

"Yeah, I guess. Let's just talk about the baby. That's all you're here for so here's the last ultrasound of the baby." I hand him the photo and position myself on the couch.

I watched as his eyes water at the sight of the photo. To see your baby smiling at you from inside is the most beautiful thing ever. It was so hard to get a photo that day, counting the game of hide and seek in my womb. I laugh to myself. I rub my stomach as I drink the tea.

"He or she will be a very happy baby. I don't see many restless nights for me at all" I smile down to my stomach. "You mean for us right? I mean, am I going to be able to see the baby?" he asks trying to be cautious with his words. "Look, I have nothing against you. I'd never stand in between a child's relationship with their father. Although, our relationship... if there was one is over for me. Our friendship in Co-parenting has just started." I sigh.

I feel the little flutters in my stomach as though someone doesn't agree with my answer. It was suddenly quiet in the room. No one was talking just complete silence, I began to doze off. I wake up to feel my legs in someone's lap. I remember I never told Aubrey to leave, I sit and listen just to see what he had to say.

"I didn't mean to hurt your mom the way I did. When she told me I was excited but my plans for everything were put on hold. I wanted to date your mom and get engaged to her along the line of that. I had planned a whole day for us the day she told me. My reactions, my body language and everything was off. I didn't know how to process it. I love your mom, but I don't think you'll have a mommy and daddy that live together. Although, I'm not going to give up on our relationship. I'll figure out how to get her back." He kisses me stomach.

I wiggle a little, it tickled. "I know you're up. I meant every word I said." He pats my leg. "You were sleep for a while. I'm going to go ahead and leave, just promise you'll call me if you need me." he walks to the door.

I wanted to be give in and tell him to stay but I just couldn't do it. I had to much pride, I'm prepared to do this alone. If you don't say something you won't see him for a little while. "I need a breast pump" I mumbled under my breath. "What?" he asked in a confused tone. "I need a cushioned breast pump, and nipple cream." I say embarrassed. "I also need a bassinet so that after I have the baby he/she will have a place to sleep, in my room. He/she will be to small to sleep in a crib. I need you to put together the crib too." I take a breath after explaining so much.

"I was going to put it together myself, but Ms. Dolly, next door, told me I shouldn't be bending over like that. I feel fine but I just don't. Anyway, do you want to do it?" I asked never even giving him a chance to talk the first time.

"Yes! I'd love to be here for you. I mean not here, here but in a supportive way when you need me." He says, trying to make sure he doesn't say anything stupid.

I smile and tell him what day and time he could come. After that, he kissed my stomach and left. I honestly stood there and thought about it. Do I still love Aubrey? Yes, I do. I still love him; I've always had special feelings for Aubrey. I just don't think I should jump back into a relationship when I'm pregnant and hormonal.

I'm not even thinking straight. I make my way to the baby's room just to look. I can't believe I'm going to be a mom. . . I didn't think I'd do it this way but I did. I promise this sweet baby will always be happy.

The next day, I wake up to my phone ringing instead of my alarm. Its Daisy "Good Morning Daisy." I say in a sleepy tone. "Good Morning Ms. Y/n. There have been cancellations for today. You don't even have to come in if you don't want to. Every meeting has been rescheduled or canceled." She says, I can hear the smile in her voice.

"Thank you, Daisy. I'll see you on Monday." I smile. He hangs up the phone. I turn over to go back to sleep. I wake up around 11. I decide to text Aubrey and tell him I'm off. Maybe he'll want to do the crib today.

Me: Hey, its Y/n. I'm off. Would you like to come and put the crib up today?

Aubrey: No problem! I'll be there around 12:30. I have some business to handle.

Me: Okay, no rush. If you can't make it, its fine.

Aubrey: I'll be there. Do you need anything?

Me: No, I'm okay. See you later.

End of conversation

A part of me wanted him to say he couldn't come. I just want something to go wrong. Just to prove my doubts.

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