I had been with Justin 10 years and counting in friendship. He's everything that I ever wanted in a none friendship way. I was just too young back then to realize that he would be everything I wanted now. I just can't believe that he only sees me as his friend. The crazy thing is there's almost nothing I can't do about it. Prom is coming up, and we're going together but only for show.
He wanted me to go because every prom I sit at home because no one ever asks me. I always go just to take pictures of him and his date. They're always perfect. Once again I'm pretending to be happy for him. Almost practicing for the wedding, I'll be forced to sit there and smile, pretending to be glad for him.
"Y/n, are you ready for tonight?" he asks while smiling. "Yeah, I'm ready." I laugh a little.
I wish I could just play with his hair while we're lying in bed, it's something I've always wanted. There has never been a moment where I fantasize about sex with him. I only want him to be mine.
"Hey!" he snaps his fingers. "Oh, uh yeah sorry. What did you say?" I asked while coming back to reality. I need to stop doing that.
"Can I see the dress?" he asks while smiling. "Nope." I laughed. "Man, Princess stop playing. I want to see it." He begged. "No, you can't see it until tonight. It's five now, and it starts at 7, so you need to go home and wait." I say while looking in the mirror. I watch as he falls back onto the bed throwing a fit. "Okay, I'll go." He sighs.
"I'll see you at 7." I smile. He hesitated before smiling and simply saying "See you later, Princess." Before walking out the door.
He's been calling me princess since I could remember. I never thought about it in a teasing way. I don't feel like I'm good enough for him. I'm just going to focus on this night because I don't think I'll have a moment like this ever again.
*Hours Later*
"Y/n sweetie! Justin is here, come on I want to take some pictures before you go." I hear yelling from downstairs. I look over to my sister and smile. I almost cry while looking in the mirror. "I didn't know I looked like this . . ." I say while holding back tears. "You've always been beautiful, y/n. I just put it in a way for you to see." She smiles and kisses my cheek. "Have fun tonight." She says while wiping a tear from my face. She walks downstairs.
I walk downstairs wondering what Justin's reaction is going to be. The bottom of my dress peaks out and I hear my sister say "She has now seen herself in a new light and now you will too." She smiles toward everyone.
I stand at the bottom of the steps and smile. It's amazing to feel so confident, I have not one bad thought about myself right now. My mom starts to cry, while my dad can't stop smiling. My sister is just starring at Justin; he can't seem to find words right now.
"You look better than anything I could have ever imagined you to be, princess." He takes my hand and we pose for my mom's pictures. This has to be the happiest moment of my life. We walk out of the house and get into the car.
Once we pull up to our school I see all the girls smiling and happy. We park Justin gets out the car to open my door. No one knew he was bringing me or anyone for that matter, he said he wasn't coming tonight.
Justin helps me out of the car, he shows me off as if I'm his most prized possession. As we walk up the photographer takes our pictures and inside we go. I'd never danced so much in my life or even in public for that matter. Every song that came on I need to dance.
It seemed like only a couple hours had went by but before we knew it, it was 12 o'clock. "Y/n let's go to my place" He says with question in his voice as though I wouldn't say yes. "yeah sure. My sister will bring me cloths." I say as we get into the car. We meet my sister half way with the cloths so she wouldn't have to drive so far. I get back and choose the comfiest one. I was so happy be out of the dress yes it's nice to be dolled up. But I'm okay looking like I always do.
We sit on the couch and watch tv, I fell asleep and woke up in bed next to Justin. I lie there waiting for him to wake up. "If you had a secret how would you tell it?" he asks while looking at the ceiling. "I'd probably write it down . . . I'm better at writing things. I always write my secrets down." I answer honestly. "Why not keep them locked away in your mind? Someone could find the papers and know your secrets." He asks.
"Because I know how to hide things." I say softly. "I only have one more question." He says.
"Go ahead." I reply waiting.
"How many of those secrets have been about me?" he asks while glancing over at me.
"The truth?" I manage to ask as my thoughts run wild.
"All of them since 9th grade." I say with my eyes closed. I was ready for him to reject me nicely and laugh it off. I'm not his type and I can't turn into to that. I can't pretend to be what he would want me to be.
The room is completely silent for what seemed like forever. "Tell me the very first one." He says while holding my hand. I take a deep breath. I remember the very first one, it's my favorite one because I wrote everything I loved about him. I'd just realized it that day, right before the summer.
"I was hanging out with Justin today, we went to the old abandoned park again. Mama, told us not to go over there but it's like our spot, you know. We were playing on the merry-go-round, we stopped and fell backwards onto the ground. I fell on top of him by accident, I tried to move but he was holding my waist. I look at him and noticed how much I loved his smile. How I loved his eyes. How I loved when he held my hand. How much I loved his voice. Most of all how much I loved him.
I also realize how I wasn't that pretty. I realize I'd never be good enough for him. I also realize I'm going to have to pretend I don't love him for the rest of my life. . . I'm going to have to pretend that I'm happy for the rest of my life. I have to play pretend like we did as children playing house. I have to pretend to not be emotional everyday . . ." I finish and sniffle a little. I tried not to cry.
'I shouldn't have told you anything . . ." I say softly. "I've been pretending too, princess." He says.
"I pretend not to be interested. I pretend that I don't love you more than I love myself. I pretend to think about other girls. I pretend to not want to kiss you when we're talking. I pretend that the worse will happen if I actually tell you. I pretend like I don't know you've been crying when I call late at night. Most of all, I pretend not to think of you as my wife." He says while stroking the back of my hand.
Sit up and look over to him, I lean over and kiss him. I kissed him with all the passion in my soul. I pull away slowly looking into his eyes. "That was so much better than I could have ever imagined it to be." He smiles.
He held me close the rest of the night, while we talked about everything. Eventually we fell asleep, My dream came true. My life has only just begun.
Everyone has played pretend before, right?
Hey babes! Let me know if I should continue to make outfits for the stories. I thought it might add a little something extra to it. All of you tell me, I put you in tune with the characters emotions. Why not know their outfits. The stories will still be long, I add the pictures after I'm done writing. There may or may not be a part 2 in your future.Comment,Vote, and Share! Love you guys <3
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Little Imagines (Rated R)
RomanceThese are all Y/n (Your Name) Imagines. All of these stories are made to fit everyone as close as possible. I try to make sure everyone is included. All of my imagines are original, so don't come and tell me that you think I stole ideas. People have...