Stay With Me

Chapter 14

LIAM'S POV

I can't believe Bella reacted that way. She's never acted as angry as she was earlier. I had to explain to all the boys that she is having a rough time with all the transitioning. I wasn't going to tell them about her depression or her cutting. I don't want them to know about her past then treat her like she belongs in a mental ward of a hospital. It's hard enough for Belle and having everyone know isn't going to help her at all. I just hope she's getting better not worse because if she gets worse there might not be any way to get her out of it this time.

BELLE'S POV

I finall woke up sometime in the afternoon judging from the bright sun shining through my window. I got up and slowly opened my door as to not make a sound. I didn't want any of the boys to know or see me up. I couldn't let them know I was or they might try to stop me. I knew I wanted to do this. I knew I needed to, or atleast a part of me said I needed to. I was just so stressed out and there were too many emotions flowing through me and I had to let them out some how.

"I wonder if the TV works down here?" One of the boys said from the basement so I took that as my chance to run to the bathroom since they weren't on the same level as me and couldn't interfer just yet.

I ran to the bathroom and locked the door. I closed the vent so they couldn't hear me through that. I searched the cabinet for my sharp razor. I stared at it fascinated how such a small object that is easily concealed can control someone's life. How such a small object is in things children use like sharpeners. How such a small thing can ruin someone's life and cause pain to people who don't even come in contact to it. How such a small thing that looks so clean can cause such a mess. I snapped myself out of my thoughts and sat myself on the floor. I grabbed two hand towels: one for the blood and one to use as a muffler to my screams of pain. I readied myself for the pain about to come as I glided the razor across my skin. I flinched at that first slice. I watched as a river of red blood trickled down my wrist. I watched it and thgouht of it as my worries flowing out of me. I took another slice and I shook a little at the shock of the deepness. I didn't think it was enough. I cut again right under it. I did it slowly as to feel it cut my skin. I screamed into the towel in my mouth and bit hard. I repeated it again and again. My wrists looked like a sea of blood. My wrists were the Red Sea. I watched as it trickled down my fore arms and watched it drip onto the floor. The floor soaked up my problems and worries. I felt like everything just flowed out of me. Even myself.

No one could stop me. I was too cautious. Maybe my cautiousness would be the death of me. Maybe my secrets would. My head started to spin. I didn't know if it was because of my thinking or the blood loss. My common sense started to kick in and then the pain appeared as a burning sensation so I screamed out in pain. The towel fell out of my mouth. The next thing I heard was foot steps and yelling as I screamed out.

"NO! STOP! PLEASE STOP!" Liam yelled out to me.

"Help me! Make it stop!" I cried out as I bawled making my tears mix with the blood and cuts on my arms.

"Open the door Belle. Please just open the door!" They all yelled. Someone then ran towards the kitchen.

"I got the key, it's gonna be okay Belle." Liam  said. My head felt heavier so I rested it on the floor as I heard a click. I shut my eyes as black engulfed my sight.

LIAM'S POV

I opened the door as fast as I could but I feared I was too late. Belle was unconcious on the floor will blood stil flowing out of her wrists. She was covered in it and there was a layer covering the floor. I realized she was doing it for a while. I sunk to my knees next to her as I yelled to call an ambulance. I picked her up as if she was a child. She was my baby sister, in my eyes she always would be. I cuddled her against me as I walked past everyone else and walked to the front porch. I rocked her back and forth as my tears fell on her cheeks. I waited for the ambulance to come and save her. I needed her to be saved. The ambulance came and the paramedics grabbed my arms and dragged me to the ambulance. One instructed me to lay her on the stretcher and I complied. I watched as my baby sister layed and looked lifeless. She didn't look like she was sleeping anymore. I grew weaker as I stumbled to the ground. I watched the ambulance quickly shut the doors and drive off. I sat there with a dead-pan expression and stared where the ambulance previously was. I couldn't believe this happened again. I don't know what to do anymore but one thought was that Belle would stay with me and I will fight for that even if I die in the process.