One, Two, Three

Chapter thirty-four

One,

Two,

Three.

Three minutes of me barfing my guts out. I can't help it. When I get scared and nervous, at the same time, I barf. I've done it ever seance I was a little girl. "Porsche, are you ok?" Romeo ask as he opens the door. No I'm not ok. Jack said... the L word, and the L word isn't lesbians. It's... lo... lov...love. I start barfing again. Romeo comes up behind me and holds my hair and starts stroking my back. After two more barfs I'm heaving up nothing. "I'm going to take that as a no." Romeo says whipping off some barf from my face. I sigh. "I have no idea why I'm scared..." Romeo looks at me. He has a look that says 'Really? I even know.' I sigh again. "Ok fine I do know. I've always been scared of lo... the L word. I've never thought that someone could lo... lo... ,you know, me for me. Just the thought of someone wanting me like that scares me." I I try to stand up but I stumble over and fall into the bathtub. Romeo helps me out of it and picks me up bridle style. He carries me out into the living room. "I'm going to go to bed with Porsche. She isn't feeling well." Romeo says to everyone. Jack stands up and comes over to me. "I'll take her." Jack kisses me on the cheek then he stumbles backwards. I cuddle up to Romeo. He looks down at me then at Jack. "Nah man, I got this. You stay down here and chill. I'm tired anyway." He pulls me closer to him. Jack looks at us. Then he shrugs and kisses me again. I get shivers up and down my spine. "Goodnight babe." He backs away and goes to sit back down. "Night ya guys." Romeo says and takes me up stairs. He puts me down on my bed. He tucks me in and goes over to the window seat, grabs a blanket and lays down. I sit up and look at him. "What are you doing?" I ask him as I try to stand up. He sees that I'm trying to stand up and he rushes to help me. "What am I doing? What are you doing? Trying to get up." He helps me get back into bed. Once I'm set I pull him into bed with me. "You sleep with me. You've always slept with me. You will always sleep with me. Got it?" I tell him as I pull the blankets up. He laughs. "I got it. It's just different now that you have a boy fri-." I cut him off by putting my hand over his mouth. "Don't you dare say that. It's never gonna be different. Not even when we're married. We will always sleep together." He hesitates and takes a deep breath. "When we're married?" He ask. He's shaking. I cuddle up to him with my head on his chest and my arms around him. I can hear his heart beat. It's a lot faster then normal. "Well yea. Don't you plan on getting married to the love of your life?" I says in a dumb founded tone. He stops breathing so hard and his heart beat slows down. "Oh right." He says with a hint of sadness in his voice. I look up at him and kiss him on the cheek. "I love you Romeo. I know I don't say it enough but you're my best friend and I will always be your best friend, wether you like it or not. Thank you for always being there when I need you. I really do love you." I don't know what came over me... I've never done that before. But it's the truth I do love him, I love him a lot. He's been my best friend forever. I feel him kiss me on my forehead and his arm slips around me. "I love you too Porsche. I really do... More then you will ever know. He whispered the last part. I don't think he wants me to hear that. What does he mean by that? "What's that mean?" I ask him but he snores. He must of fallen asleep. I guess he really is tired. I look at him one more time. Then I put my head back on his chest and I drift off to sleep.