Your Mine | Sequel to Take Care | (BoyxBoy)

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desean's mom above ^^ this chapter is short.

Ashton Williams

" Desean that is nowhere near the fucking point. Your mother -- if that's honestly what you wanna call her, left my kids alone in a fucking bedroom, along with your father. Who, by the way, makes it no damn secret to eye rape me every time he sees me. If she didn't want my children there, then she should've said so! " I yelled.

I was fuming at this point, and Desean didn't seem to get it. I honestly felt some way about her just tossing my babies to the side - whether some people see it as a big deal or not. I feel like she honestly did it on purpose, she doesn't really show my kids any love or compassion - because somewhere in her head, she believes they aren't his. I should've been going with my gut feeling and keeping them from her, but instead I decided to listen to Desean -- whose slowly but surely pissing me off. It's like he doesn't see where I'm coming from as a parent, and I don't get it.

" I've already told you that I was going to talk to her about it. You're really making this into something it is not Ashton. I mean we don't even know the whole damn story, and you already tripping. " He shot back.

I already knew I was getting nowhere in this conversation - I was basically talking to a brick wall. He did nothing when it came to his mom -- I mean in the beginning, yeah, but it's worsened and I only try to respect her because I'm in a relationship with her son. I'm over and done with it though, she doesn't respect me and she is going to get the same in return. I'm done being nice, to people who don't deserve it. Desean included - I'm done with his ass, until he learns how to put his mom back into her place.

" I'm getting nowhere with you. And you damn right I'm tripping Desean. She's been in their life - what only a few weeks? And she hasn't accepted them yet. I honestly don't give a damn about her opinion, because I know who I slept with at the end of the day - but for her to even try and mistreat my kids pisses me off. I don't know what her problem with me is, but she needs to grow the hell up and act like a woman. I don't want my kids around any of them over there from now on. Matter fact I don't want any of your family around my children. I've done nothing but been good to you and love you - but I get treated like I ain't nothing. From mostly everyone. What your broke ass family should be doing -- is thanking me for getting you out of that raggedy ass neighborhood and turning you into something. If it wasn't for me, you all would still be there doing nothing with your lives. You know what?! I don't expect you to see where I'm coming from, because you haven't been there. I've raised them since giving birth, and you - you've only been here a few months. So NO, you wouldn't understand! " I yelled at him.

I didn't realize all I'd just said, until it was to late.

" Damn. " He gave a dry chuckle. " I never knew you felt that way. "

I sighed, watching him about to walk out.

" Desean wait - I didn't mean it, I was just upset. " I sincerly apologized.

" No. " He mumbled. " Your right, you are the reason I'm here where I am today. I just never thought you'd throw it in my face, at the end of the day. I know I fucked up a lot, and we've had major disagreements, but I'd have to say this hurt the most. All the deep conversations we had - I vented to you, cried to you. And you throw it in my face. Damn. My son's - you know I love them with all my heart - you making it seem like I don't care about them, or are bond together isn't as strong as y'all's. Of course not, I just came into the picture but I'm trying Ashton. You know that, more than anybody. I'm here every second handling my responsibilities. "

I felt the tears already threatening to spill. I felt bad. I was frustrated and upset, and I decided to take it out on him, when he's trying. I felt so awful - and even more when I looked up and seen a few stray tears falling from his eyes. I'd just hurt the man I loved, and it's something I never intended on doing. I loved Desean with all my heart - but, the words I choose were not the best.

" I love you Desean. I'm sorry - I'm just stressed and upset about everything. " I cried.

" Yeah. I'm sorry to - sorry that we didn't work out for the second time around, and that I'm now giving up. I love you with all my heart, but I won't be looked down on. Not by you, or anyone else Ashton. What you just expressed to me - hurt like hell, but I'm glad you let me know how you feel. "

Hearing a click sound hit the countertop, he looked up to see Desean's management ring sitting on the counter - and Desean making his way to the front door. Putting his head into his hands, he bawled his eyes out. He knew Desean was hurt - and he was the cause. Saying unnecessary and mean things, might've just caused him his relationship to the only man who ever really loved him.

good? would've kept going but I'm tired and these nails arent helping. didn't proofread. vote and comment.