Your Mine | Sequel to Take Care | (BoyxBoy)

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Ashton Williams

So, to make Desean happy, I put my feelings aside and let him do this little - hoax, if that's what you want to call it. I'm slowly regretting my decision though, and I'm starting to feel so stupid. It's been a week and he hasn't really been home, he's now always out partying and clubbing with this girl. They're seen out in public, and their doing interviews -- just last week they were on the Wendy Williams show, and that woman had the nerve to question if I was the side chick, trying to pin babies on him that weren't his. I was extremely pissed, because instead of Desean defending me, he let the bitch Sadee speak for him. And if it's coming out of her mouth then you know it ain't nothing but negative. I was hurt, because now people looking at me funny when in the end I'm doing nothing wrong. I'm trying to be a good person and do a good thing, by letting my fiance go and pretend to be with another female. I've been getting calls from family and friends, and they all think that I'm nuts for even agreeing to this. I want to end this all, but in end I put myself into this situation.

When I call his phone he doesn't answer, he doesn't respond to my text messages. I'm feeling like a complete fool, here I am, almost five years later, raising two boys and pregnant - I'm alone again. He has time to attend interviews and parties, but when it comes to his family, we're left alone, and I hate it. He's been in, and out of the house, we've barely held conversation -- and, I just don't know what to do. I've been avoiding Robyn heavy, since I already knew she was going to drill my ass. Aaron -- her husband, and Desean, are best friends so I'm pretty sure she's been seeing what's been going on. So, today I decided to meet her for lunch, we haven't talked in days, I've been in the house this past week, and I don't care how he feels about it, but I'm getting out this damn house whether he likes it or not.

I'm pissed with him, Lord knows I want to call this quits, but I'm not ready to give up on him yet. Desean has my heart and he knows it, he takes advantage of it as well. We've been having amazing moments since he's been back in my life, I've known him and I've been in love with him since high school -- I do not want to have to start over with someone completely new. My babies need their father in their life, and that's who I want to be with. I atleast hope he stills feel the same way about me. I can't tell, since the Sadee bitch, has his attention twenty four seven. And yes, I feel some way about it. Jealous? NO. I can't be mad at her at the end of the day, because, again I choose to allow him to do this, when in the end I have a feeling he was going to do it either way.

After all, if he didn't, his career was in danger.

I dried myself down, lotioned my body in my Magic Paris, body lotion. I headed into my closet debating on what I wanted to wear. I finally settled with a Long sleeve, dark Green, mid calf, Bodycon dress. Allie, lace up, Nude heels. & my Michael Kors, leather wallet. I added my Dark, Nude, lipstick and I was ready to go. I made sure I had everything, locked up, and headed out to my Range Rover. I typed in the address we were meeting at and I was on my way.

I couldn't help but think Desean took advantage sometime, because, I didn't put my foot down as I should. I usually just let him make all the decisions, and let him take the lead. I feel like I'm being walked over and if something doesn't change, we won't last. I need to start making my own choices, for myself, and I need to start telling him how I feel more often. I know, for a fact, no other person would let their partner be with someone else. Maybe I'm too nice? I don't know, but it has to change. For the better.

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" Ignore them babe, they'll go away soon. Everything that comes out their mouth, is complete bullshit. I wanna punch Desean in his fuckin' face, he caused this -- him and his thot, not you. Don't even worry about it, ima definitely handle it -- nobody fucks with my bestfriend. " Robyn said, as we sat down at the table, in the far back.

As soon as I stepped foot in front of the restaurant, paparazzi was swarming me with photos, and questions. I'm glad Robyn was by my side in a second, I felt myself slowly having a mental break down. The questions they asked were pissing me off, even more and I found myself wanting to strangle Desean's ass.

" Are you pregnant? "

" Is it Desean Adams baby? "

" Were you trying to pin babies on him? "

And the million dollar question that made my heart sink into the ground.

" Is it true, that Sadee Marie, is now pregnant by Desean Adams? "

I swear, I almost punched that man in the face when he asked me that question. How disrespectful? I was so quick to pull my phone out, and get in contact with Desean. He didn't answer though, it went right to voicemail. I didn't even bother to cry, or become sad about it.

" How much are you willing to take, before enough is enough? I mean, no doubt y'all love each other, but this is a bit to much, and as your best friend I don't think you deserve any of it. " Robyn sighed.

" I .. I don't know what to think. I agree, this is something I don't want him doing, but I agreed because I didn't want him losing something, he loved doing. Like, I love him so damn much, and the way he's been treating me is so damn unacceptable. What am I supposed to tell the kids, when they're asking for him, or wondering why he isn't home anymore? I'm starting to think, he just doesn't care. He came into my life, just to break my heart once again. " I sniffed.

I'd never do, what Desean has done to me, to him. Ever. I couldn't imagine putting him through the things, I dealt with. All, I want is for this whole charade to be over. I want my man back, where he belongs -- and I want this Sadee chick, to move the hell on. It's like this girl, gets a kick outta' ruining Desean & I. I haven't let it happen before and I won't let it happen again.

Days are becoming limited, and soon everyone's going to see a side of me, they wish they didn't.

sumn short, how was it though? didn't proofread. outfit above ^^ vote and comment. Desean though? sadee though? sadee, being pregnant though? lol, ig I'm done. hope you all enjoy this small chapter