Para Sa Mga Di Maka-Move On

Four

Fucking hell!

Never mind writing on my diary (sorry notebook), kahit ilang oras akong magsulat, hinding-hindi gagaan ang pakiramdam ko. Tangina lang kasi talaga!

I saw my ex. My fucking spawn-of- Satan-from-hell ex!

Akala ko okay na ako. Akala ko nakalimot na ako. Kung nakakapagsalita lang ang puso ko, malamang nagpower tripping na yun. It's a prank bitch! It would've told me.
Pero sana may warning din ano? Bumalik lahat eh.

Who said that moving on is an easy thing to do? Sino? Upakan kita gusto mo? Saang parte ng pagbitaw ang madali?

Well not unless sobrang kinamumuhian mo siya to the point na makakaya mo siyang ipasalvage o ipakain sa buwaya. Madali lang yun actually.

But nah, we're talking about loving someone so much, even more than your own life but ends up being dumped for whatever reason.

And being dumped on your supposed to be special day is cruelty at it's finest. I mean, come on man! There are thirty or thirty one days in a month. Why choose that exact day when you're supposed to make her happy and special but suddenly decided to take a U-turn and broke her heart instead? That's just...heartless.

Pucha! Ang swerte mo pag binalikan ka pa sa kabila ng kagaguhan mo. Tss!

Ang nakakainis kasi sa ating mga babae, and daling magsubside ng galit natin for them. One moment we're cursing them with so much intensity, next, we're missing them so much that crying is the only thing to do. We're hopelessly romantic like that I guess.

And pano natin makakaligtaan ang maya't mayang pangiistalk sa Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, ultimo Spotify o Soundcloud eh. Titingnan natin kung may bago na ba. Kung meron, anong gagawin?
Right! Iinsultuhin ng bongga as if mabisang paraan yun ng pagpapaganda. Bitter masyado di ba?
Yeah, I stooped that low for the first month of my heartbreak.

Marami ang against dun. Don't let your past relationship's failure take away your sweetness. Wag hayaan ang sariling magpakabitter. He's not worth it. Blah!

Are you effin kidding me?!

How can you possibly ignore the aching of your heart which causes your bitterness and just throw it away like you were only changing clothes? What? So you will just pretend that nothing happened and your life is perfectly fine?

It's all right to unleash the bitterness residing in you. Go on, cuss all you want. You're entitled to it. But make sure that everything you do to express your bitterness gradually takes it out of your system so you can make a room for the sweetness life could bring. Think about it as replenishing. You wash away the bitterness to make a room for sweetness.
Take note of that. Replenish.

Fucking hell. Can I do that tho?