The Attic

Chapter 16 Woot woot!

(I know i skipped a bunch of days..)

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ENDING OF SUMMER (I skipped a bunch of days.)

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Summary

It's been awhile since i have spoke, that last time i did i was about to kill my mom. She didn't speak to me for the whole rest of the next day. Two days later she said that she was going to put me up for adoption. At that i cried. Tears rolled down one by one. I wouldn't see my mom in such a long time. I have had enough with this moving! One by one and the next thing you know your real mom wont be there to support you. I wanted my real mom to be there for me. Not a stupid fake mom! I already had enough to deal with, like the ghost. The weird part was, the ghost didn't do anything to me, which was really unusual. The ghost would usually come back, day by day trying to get it's revenge, but i dont see what i did to make it's firework set off. I couldn't believe my mom put me up for adoption. Actually, I think I do understand. Would do the same thing if my daughter tried to kill me. I have been going to counselor every day, so hopefully my momma would gain my trust.

         Days later my mom finally put me up for adoption. I was really upset. I tried to seem angry all the time so no one would adopt me. I don't see why anyone would want me. I am just an ugly mess. Thoughts were multiplying. I actually felt like killing myself. Suicide is such a horrible feeling. I cant even explain it. You feel like you're a nobody and you feel like no one loves you. I know my mom still loves me, you could say she made the right choice. I just wanted to punch myself in the face, it was horrible.

          Finally some one wanted me. My mom wanted to get to know them first so she can gain their trust. They gave us their address and we headed right away. We finally reached our destination. I couldn't stop looking at the house, i couldn't explain it. It was huge! Maybe this wouldn't be as bad as i thought it would. i mumbled. I didn't smile because i didn't want my mom to be hurt or offended.  We walked inside one step by one and i gave the honors to ring the door bell. I welcomed my self and ran inside. It was undecribable, It looked so nice on the outside but on the inside it looked like a pigs house. There were clothes laying all over the floor, moldy food sitting on the couch, you name it. It smelled even worse than it looked. It smelled like an animal died. Actually, more like one hundred animals died. It was so gross. I didn't even think i could step on to their floor, insead i stayed on the rug. I felt like i was going to vomit. The stinch swirled around my nose, torturing me.

        They talked and they seemed to get along great. It worried me because my mom had a satisfied face. I couldn't believe what i was seeing. I had to have been dreaming.

        We left finally.

          "Honey." my mom announced

 i couldnt say anything. I was choked up in tears i couldnt bare to hear what she was going to tell me. She took a deep breath and spoke.

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I felt like it was a good time to end it, sorry! Please send me suggestions, be honest. It won't hurt my feelings, just tell me the honest truth, I won't care one bit, i will just try to learn from my mistakes and fix everything. I tried to make this chapter long... It's not really that long but oh well.

Love you all,

Jordyn..