The Attic

Chapter 21 :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

I never imagined this day would come, that stupid ghost had separated me from my mother. It felt like my head was steaming with anger. It felt like my head was going to explode.

"This is it." I thought as i headed up to my bedroom. It was cluttered, On the far side of the room i spotted my shattered camera from the night i tried to video tape the ghost. On the floor i aslso saw a bunch of book scattered. I walked to the corner of my room to grab my suitcase. The moment i was least expecting it, the ghosts face was right in front of mine. I stood there my mouth and eyes open. Her head was pushed against mine, but i felt the cool head pressed against me. I. Felt. It. It was almost as if i felt her blood dripping down my face. She wasn't a ghost, she couldn't have been. I felt her face pressed against mine. I tried reading her facial expression but it was a more of a blank look that showed a bit of anger.

"Why did you do that to me?" She growled, that turned into a scream at the end. I was suprised my mom didn't come running in wondering what i was screaming about. I realised that she had a very high pitched scream, the noise pierced my ears. She wasn't here. It was just my head. I haven't seen her in weeks, how come she would just randomly come now? I thought. I was trying to picture no one there but it never worked. I just saw the same cut up figure. My mind was bursting. She just stood there staring at me.

      My mom came bursting up the stairs. I pointed my finger and screamed to her.

"What?" she said making me sound stupid.

I look over and as you know, there was nothing there.

"Just get your stuff packed!"

I took a deep breath and stacked my clothes in my suitcase,

this is what has been keeping me up all night. Remembering the picture clearly in my mind. Not being able to sleep knowing no matter where i go i will never be safe. N.E.V.E.R.

I remember looking at those wicked eyes, all of the cuts gushing with blood. This is it. I will not see my mom.. until, who knows when. Tears rolled down my cheek.

"If only i could start my whole life over." I sniffed. "If i would have known this was going to happen so soon, i would have took the time to treasure the moments, like in kindergarden, I was with my friend, Maddy. We were going to go rollerskating. I fell so many times, each time we laughed so hard, it felt we would going to laugh out our lungs. If only.. I wish i could... I want... to start my life over! If only i knew. When i was moving schools Maddy got really mad at me and the last words i told her were I.Hate.You. i never have talked to her since, if only... i could run back to her and hug her and laugh about the stupid things with her again, no worries. Just me. Being me. I just want to trade places with someone. I just want to be able to be fine without scanning the room every two seconds. If only. I don't even know where my dad is. If only i knew when he was going to run away, i would have hugged him the whole day, comfort him, tell him i love him and actually mean it. I would tell him to never leave... I wish. If only there was a shooting star that bursted through the sky. If only. I would wish for no ghost, just my normal life. Just my normal self and i wouldn't be so scared. If only. I want a normal life. I deserve one. I have made alot of mistakes and regret them. Everyone makes mistakes. Not just me. Everyone. This could be the ending of my life. Was it really going to be it? Why was that ghost trying to torture me? I just want answers. If only... I could get what i want. I know that will never happen. It. Never. Will. I don't care what anybody says. It will never happen. If only... I got married with someone i love and have kids. I could just imagine a bunch of small kids running around as i was trying to chase then around telling them not to run. It would be the world to me if that could happen. It hurts to know i could die. No one believes me and i have absolutely no proof. ANd even if i tried it would be almost impossible to kill it, whatever it is. Nothing is going right. Child memories came through my head again. Maddy and i were going to go bowling for the first time. I had a six pound bull and ran up to the lane, and ran on to the land not knowing you are suppose to roll it down the lane from the line. The lane was glazed with oil, so of course i fall almost right away. It hurt but it was too funny to not laugh, I remember Maddy saying to me, "You Silly Goose!" And laughed her head off. The first thought in my head at the moment was "Why do i always get hurt?" But then i joined in with the laughter. Those days were perfect. Everything was wonderful, no homework. (Besides coloring a picture.) But i still complained, I always said. "Why does a little kindergardener get homework? They are too little!" Not knowing what was going to come at me in a couple of years. I always thought life was so hard and i complained about everything. I had not realised how much i complained every day. It probably was really annoying to my mom. I didn't care. ll i cared about was myself. I never even thoght about helping my mom it was only me. just me. I have so many regrets. So many. I want to start over. Start fresh. Be thankful for everything i have.

       I zipped my suitcase and looked at the clock, it read; 11:32 I sighed. The only things i were going to leave in this room was the alarm clock, the shattered camera and the best friend half-heart necklace Maddy gave me. She would never forgive me and i will never see her again. I took a deep breath and brought down two bags, came back upstairs and repeated. Finally i finished and ran downstairs. My mom had a big feast on the kitchen table for me. I thanked her and grabbed some food, and gobbled it up.

         I read the oven clock, it read; 12:00, this is it, goodbye house goodbye friends and most importantly, goodbye mom. We took the truck and piled all of my stuff in the back. I (for the first time) sat in the front seat right next to my mom holding her hand. It felt like just yesturday i was having the time of my life.

         We finally arrived. This is it. I hugged my mom and instantly cried. I repeativily screamed "I...LLL-OVEE YOUU!" I sniffed. My heart felt like it shattered into a million pieces.

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hi, Like i promised, i uploaded again, now usually i dont do this but a couple people asked.. "How do i become a "Star" on Wattpad?

1.Make a catchy intro that will grab the ready and make him/her immediatly interested

2.when you start Wattpad you wont have 100 votes right away, keep on writing. Be patient, you will get alot of reads.

3. don't just say i will upload another chapter when i get 100 votes, it's just stupid.

4.If you promise you will write another chapter in 2 days, keep that promise, if they don't see another chapter in 2 days, they will be mad.

5. always end the chapter with something interesting and make then want to keep on reading.

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