Jojen was silent for what felt like hours. I lay there on his bed, desperate for an answer. I couldn't read his face and that terrified me. Even asking this of him took a lot courage. He ran a hand through his hair before sighing. "What if we get caught? What if you get pregnant? What will you do?"
I quieted his questions with a kiss. "We won't get caught. You've taught me enough invisibility spells to conceal a dragon. And if I get pregnant, it's to be expected of me, my consummation is in a week!"
"But Lehna, are you sure you're ready for motherhood?" I looked away and he grabbed my hand. "Besides, Princess, I don't think I could handle it. I already have to love you from afar, how could I bear not being able to love my child like a good father does? And if you died because of me, I would be lost. You are my light, Lehna. Which is why I have to say no."
"Jojen, you say you love me, but you would have me lose my maidenhood to a man who would fuck the Iron Throne if it meant he could be King than to someone who loves me and cherishes me the way no one else ever will? You love me for me, not because I'm to be Queen some day. And there's something else...."
"What is it?"
I took a deep breath. "I was reading an old spellbook I found and...it said....witches are infertile." I choked back a sob. "I can't bear children."
"Lehna," he whispered and pulled me into him. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know. I've never trained a female witch before." He held me close as I struggled not to cry.
"I'm sorry," I sniffed. "I shouldn't have asked that of you. It was improper. Many other women have had to share their bed with one man for their entire life, I can do it as well. Goodnight, Jojen." I rose from his arms and made my way towards the door.
"Lehna wait!" He called. He hurried to my side and held my hands in his and kissed them. "I would be honored to be your first." He whispered a spell and wrapped his arms around my waist. I stepped into him, trying to get as close as possible to the man I loved. It was as though every barrier between us was agonizing.
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I was almost shaking with joy and anticipation and a love that was like a consuming fire, coursing through my entire body. I kissed Jojen and hoped that he was feeling that fire as well. He had declared his love for me on more than one occasion and now it was time to show rather than tell.
He began to back towards the bed, never breaking the kiss and never opening his eyes. When he hit the edge of the bed, he broke away and looked deep into my eyes. "I love you," he breathed.
I smiled and he lifted me onto the bed, slowly pushing me down below him. "Lehna," Jojen's voice was tentative.
"What is it?" I panicked, thinking he had changed his mind.
"I've never done this before, either."
A part of me was relieved. "Don't think too much," I laughed. "It's just us. You love me, I love you, and that's all that matters."
Jojen's smile was almost blinding. I had never seen anything so beautiful. It was almost a shame to close my eyes and kiss him because I'd miss looking at him.
His fingers slipped behind me and I lifted slightly to give him more room. He pulled on the string keeping my corset tight, and in a moment it was gone. His lips moved to my neck and I sank back in bliss.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and threaded my fingers through his hair. The most incredible sound escaped his lips. I played with the hem of his shirt before pulling it over his head. I ran my hands down his chest and he took a sharp breath.
"Are you alright?" I asked. "We don't have to do this if you don't want to."
"Lehna, I want this more than anything." He pressed his lips to mine and I felt my dress leave my body. Through the night, Jojen and I were completely together. Nothing existed outside of us. In those moments I wasn't a princess or a witch, I was Lehna - the girl who loved Jojen with all of her heart.
[I kinda changed my mind about the whole graphic thing, but I changed my username and profile picture because I don't want anyone I know finding this particular chapter lol]
I awoke in Jojen's arms the next morning. "Jojen!" I whispered. "How late is it? I need to get back, they'll be looking for me!"
"Good morning to you too," he laughed. "Don't worry, Princess, we'll get you back in time. Put your dress on, I think there's a tunnel to your room somewhere."
Jojen hopped out of bed and smirked at me. "What, you're not even going to have the decency to turn around?"
I laughed and threw a pillow at him. I had fallen completely in love with a man that I was forced to love in private.
