Chapter 20: Saying Goodbye.
Europe Tour Day…
--- Niall POV ---
I don’t think anyone really understands how much pain is behind going on a tour. Well… overseas tours.
It’s so hard for me to say goodbye to my family, whom I probably won’t see for another few months.
I hate having to step back from their embraces. It’s so hard to watch their eyes fill with tears.
It’s even harder watching their broken faces and voices pleading that I won’t forget them, that I’ll stay safe. How could I forget them?
In some ways, it’s even harder for me to watch the boys’ say goodbye to their loved ones. When they say goodbye to their families it’s hard. It’s just so hard to let ourselves walk away from their love.
Perhaps what’s worse is the time at the airport when the only people who come to see us off are the girlfriends.
Perrie, Eleanor, Danielle and now Hope.
Tours and touring in general has caused so much heartache between them – almost costing Danielle and Liam their relationship at times.
The girls look resigned to the situation. Well, all accept one. Hope is new to this I guess and she’s taking it a lot harder than the others. I’m glad she has the girls to help her through the initial hurt. At the moment it hurts just to look at her and Harry. She’s wrapped up in his arms and they’re rocking slowly from side to side, his fingers tracing delicately along her spine over and over again; lost in each other’s company. Hope’s cheeks are tear stained and Harry tries to kiss the tracks away. He’s murmuring things to her, lowly in her ear. Words only meant for her. She just whimpers and another tear escapes. Harry’s face is so hard to look at. The raw pain like nothing I’ve ever seen. I have to turn away.
It’s times like this that I’m glad I don’t have a girlfriend; someone apart from my family that I love with all my heart. I don’t think I’d ever be able to leave.
Somewhere between the excitement of the tour and the hype behind performing and the screaming fans, the boys comfort their girls. And, probably themselves. Holding them one last time before they leave them for five months. I know that they’ll come to visit while we’re abroad but that’ll only be for a week at most.
I look around me. To Zayn and Perrie, talking quietly to each other, their hands gripping the other’s tightly. Perrie goes on her own tour soon and it’s unlikely that they’ll see a lot of each other. They don’t think about that though. Only how much they’re enjoying each other’s presence now.
Then, to Louis and Eleanor who are joking about something. Louis’ proud smile as Eleanor laughs. The underlying sadness in their lingering glances. The serious words from El wiping the fake smile from Lou’s face as it crumples. He doesn’t want to leave knowing El is sad.
To Liam and Danielle; sitting quietly side by side, their heads bent together. Breathing each other in and just basking in each other’s presence. The question running through both their heads; ‘I love you so much, but will we make it through this one?’
Then finally, again, to Harry and Hope; her still sitting on his lap with her forehead resting against his. Harry knocks his head against hers lightly, probably trying to get a point across in his low mumbles. Hope smiles slightly and Harry grins, moving to brush his lips across her cheeks, jaw and finally resting lightly on her neck, his hands still tracing her spine, almost as if tracing words into her skin. She grips him tighter and again, I have to look away. But before I do I catch the obvious pain still in Hope’s eyes. Her emotions vanishing as she buries her face in Harry’s neck.
I don’t have anyone and for the first time in a long time; I’m glad of it.
--- Eleanor POV ---
I don’t want you to go.
--- Louis POV ---
I can’t leave her sad and alone.
--- Perrie POV ---
I don’t want you to leave me alone.
--- Zayn POV ---
I don’t know if I can ignore the guys chasing after her.
--- Danielle POV ---
I don’t know if I can wait that long.
--- Liam POV ---
I don’t know if she’ll wait for me.
--- Hope POV ---
I don’t want you to go. I need you. Stay with me… Please… I can’t do this for much longer. I need you here with me. Please, stay with me.
--- Harry POV ---
I don’t know if I can leave you. I don’t know if I’ll be able to do this. God. I love you so much.
--- Unknown POV ---
The same emotions running through everyone’s bodies. The same desperate pain reflected in their eyes. Each couple dreading the calling of their flight. The idea that they’ll all be apart a burning abscess in the back of their minds. It’ll only be for a few months at most, but a lot can happen in a few months… Anyone can fall.
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A/N: Ok, so please don't hate me, I just had to write it, and sorry, yet another filler thing - chapter; yes, important; yes... long; no.... I do love you all... really really :P
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