❝I promised myself I would never fall in love with you. But it was 4 am and we were laughing way too hard and I felt happy for the first time in a long time and I knew I was screwed.❞ -via Tumblr
I silently thank Josh for teaching me so much about relationships; about myself. Even though our end had been swift and bitter, that didn't change the fact that he had once been my infinite star filled sky. He had made everything bearable.
Then, like everything, our happiness came to an end. As time trickled by, I slowly began to realize that my lungs no longer needed him to breathe. I realized that the days still go by, the world still turned and my heart still beat.
At first, I had been hesitant with Noah. He reminded me too much of Joshua, too much of a memory I wanted to leave behind. With time, as my universe continued colliding with Noah's, I found that Joshua no longer belonged in my world, and that even though he is as beautiful as the moonlight from above, I longed for a change in scenery. Noah was just that.
Noah has become my night sky decorated with a sea of stars. He's the brightest cosmos I have ever seen.
Standing in front of him, looking into his hazel eyes, I realize that he is the most important person in my life. I feel suffocated, overwhelmed with the passion of a hundred suns.
This is what love feels like.
"Are you okay?" I finally manage to ask.
"No," he simply says. "You slept with your ex-boyfriend. How are you so smart and dumb at the same time, Diana?"
I can tell he is getting serious. These past few months, all he's been calling me is "love," and I've grown accustomed to it. He only ever uses my actual name when a situation is really serious. It is odd seeing Noah in such a solemn state; I am not used to it.
"I didn't realize it was such a big deal," I say, confused. "Why are you so mad?"
"You can be real dense sometimes, Diana," Noah groans, frustration evident.
"How about you figure out your own damn problems with Amelia before you judge me?" I snap back, his judgment making me feel defensive. I know I shouldn't be so petty, but I can't help it. I feel guilty for sleeping with Josh when I really shouldn't.
"What problems?" He asks in a mocking tone.
"Oh, just that she's still in love you! How are you so blind?"
"I could ask you the same thing! Why do you care so much that Amelia has feelings for me?"
"Why do you care that I slept with Josh?" Our voices begin to escalate, turning into yells.
"Because I care so fucking much about you!" Noah exclaims. "I like you, Diana. You deserve the world and Joshua is not going to be the one to give it to you."
I am quiet for a moment, registering his words. I had no idea he cares for me as much as I care for him.
"It was stupid," I say, my voice calmer now. "I made a bad decision. It won't happen again, but I can't say the same about you and Amelia. You two are more confusing than math."
Noah runs a hand through his hair, breathing out. "I used to be in love with Amelia...I can't just ignore that. She still means so much to me."
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The Art of Falling in Love
Novela Juvenil❝I never used to believe in soulmates, but now I find myself questioning every thought I once had about love. It was almost as though love was too weak a word for what I felt for him, that perhaps soulmate is indeed the correct term. Perhaps every s...
