I have talked about how my dad is taking this I guess he feels he's losing his daughter.We talked about when I'm on T and stuff and how he would give me man to man talks on things.Also he told me my binder is in so I'm going to his and picking it up on Saturday when I have contact! *big grinny face* yassss.
I also spoke to my dad about how I've never ever felt like his little girl I've always felt like his little boy.I mean I was the one who wore tracksuits and played footie and videogames with him, sat on the couch and watched Tv with him.Always rambling on about stupid shit that's happening in society and David Cameron and shit like that.
He is my role model without my dad I wouldn't be the man I am today.We played sports, we played videogames and we love the telly.All my best interests come from my dad he's my hero.Now I am his eldest son I had a big brother but he died at birth...*sighs* I just don't know how things like that happen.I will be a good son though and he's gonna help me with man stuff when I'm on T I guess it'll be like puberty all over again.Although this time it'll be male puberty and dad can get more involved *chuckles* hair growing in new places and stuff haha.
I have bad news though my little half sibling's mum does not agree with my feelings and I may never get to see the kids.*Tears up* I just hope she doesn't find out I've not seen than in ages and I don't want to lose contact forever.They haven't even met their big brother...
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My ftm transgender journal
Random*waves* Hi my name is Blayse and this is my ftm journal I will be writing this through my life until I finally transition.Can't wait for that day! anyway here's my journal and here's a step into my life.I'm just glad I'm not hiding anymore!
