Chapter 26: Kim’s POV
I walked into the kitchen to find Kara sitting at the kitchen table reading a magazine and eating some cocopops. ‘Wheres your mam and Summer?’ I queried, she raised her eyes as if to say didn’t she tell you before turning to wash her bowl up. ‘Kara?’ I asked again. ‘What?’ she snapped. ‘I asked you a question’ I raised my voice a little. ‘She left. With Summer. Said she was going to spend some quality time together with her OTHER daughter. If you hadnt royally p!ssed her off then maybe she would have told you’ She snapped, before continuing; ‘Ya know, I thought mam would be so much happier if you two got back together but now she seems as unhappy as ever. You are supposed to be making her happy! You just made things worst!’.
I looked at her as she turned to leave the room, ‘don’t raise your voice at me, im your mum plus not everythings my fault. Yeah I have trust issues but whos fault was that? And we both have issues if you havnt noticed, not just me’ I snapped as tears streamed down my face. She turned to look at me before saying in a much calmer voice, ‘Yeah but maybe you should sort it, fix it! And maybe you should start by talking to Nadine. Civilly. But please don’t let her hurt herself again mum. I won’t be able to handle it, seeing her do it again. Ive seen her too many times growing up. Please just talk. Like adults rather than arguing and making things worst. I may have only been 5 but I still remember the first time like it was yesterday’ Kara cried. I was shocked, I don’t think either of us realised how hard our breakup had been on the kids.
Kara’s POV
I stormed out the front door to the bench just outside; I shoved a cigarette in my mouth and sparked up. I took a long drag before staring up at the sky. It was such a beautiful night, its times like this when I miss LA. It was such a clear blue sky, I used to be able to just go and sit on Venice Beach and watch the waves, it used to calm me down until I was ready to talk to people. Since coming back to the UK, I seem to have calmed down a lot, I havnt argued with anyone or taken drugs and ive only had that one fight. I’ve also cut down on the cigarettes. I hate arguing with mum especially now that ive only just got her back in my life but she needed to hear it.
I was so angry, so scared that mam would slip so far back into her depression that she started hurting herself again. Boozing, taking drugs, sex, chain-smoking, taking a razor to her wrists and overdosing on pills. Ive seen her do it all and when you are a kid its hard seeing your mam slip into all of that. I remember being made to watch as some guy raped her just because she had been stupid enough to bring the wrong guy home. I was 6. When I was 7, I walked in on Mam snorting cocain off the bathroom counter with Emily. I used to call her Aunt Em back then, ya know like the wizard of Oz because it was my favourite movie but at the time I didn’t know that she was the reason for my parents divorce. I didn’t find that out until I was 13. Emily used to childmind me and take me out all the time, she became like another mum while the whole time she was really just looking after me so that mam could go out for sex and drugs.
I can’t even count the amount of times ive walked in on mam taking drugs or almost dead, it’s too many to count and that’s why I wanted to come back to England. Thought it would be a fresh start for both of us. Thought mum could help but it seems shes just making things worst. I just want mam to get better. I want my mam back, the one that I havnt known since I was five.
Cheryl’s POV
I currently sat in a restaurant across town picking at a salad whilst Summer filled me in on the last 10 years. I smiled to makesure she thought I was listening before I fished my phone which had just beeped out of my bag. It was a text from Emily, So Tweedy, wanna go out for that coffee? X read the text. I smiled before replying quickly, How about dinner tonight?. I glanced up at Summer who had stopped talking, ‘Sorry about that’ I smiled. She grinned before continuing with her story. I glanced down at my phone again, Yeah wicked, what about the girlfriend? Do you want me to get us some booze and drugs, be like old times?. I smiled before before typing a reply; She has trust issues, pissing me off, need a good night out, yeah what sh!t can you get?.
We continued to eat in silence, I know she was my daughter but it just felt awkward. ‘you ok mam’ she asked, I smiled and just nodded slightly. ‘ya know, I know im your daughter and you havnt seen me for 10 years but im still here if you want to talk’ Summer spoke softly. ‘thanks’ I mumbled before finishing my salad. I looked at my phone again; oh right, we will definitely booze it up then! Cocaine, speed, LSD, E. Up to you? I sent a quick reply; Get whatever, I’ll meet you at yours at 8 x before chucking my phone back in my bag and biting my lip. ‘Who was that’ Summer asked, I hesitated before answering, ‘Dannii. Complaining that I havnt been to see her since I got back in the UK. Im gonna go round for drinks tonight’. Summer smiled, ‘That will be nice’ she said as I paid and we then left the restaurant.
Kim’s POV
I sat on the bed and watched as Cheryl tried on another dress, I don’t know why but I had a feeling she was lieing to me. It just wasn’t believable that she was going to Dannii’s, she hadnt been in contact with Dannii since she got back to the UK but I didn’t want to bring it up because of the previous arguments about trust. She finally turned towards me, ‘Do I look alright?’ she asked with a smile. I slowly nodded my head; ‘beautiful’ was my only reply. ‘Whats wrong Kimba’ she suddenly asked as if she didn’t have a care in the world, ‘I was just hoping that we would be able to spend some time together, ya know, to talk? We still have stuff to talk about’ I said, ‘Oh its fine, its over, don’t worry about it, right im off, don’t wait up’ she smiled before placing a chaste kiss on my lips and walking out the door. She didn’t even say I love you which was weird in its own right. Im just being paranoid I told myself before settling on my bed to watch some TV.
Cheryl’s POV
I turned up at Emily’s dead on time, I felt guilty about not telling Kim my real whereabouts but I couldn’t tell her, I knew how she would react. Plus we are JUST friends! Yeah you keeping telling yourself that Cheryl I mumbled to myself just as the door flung open to reveal disheveled Emily, I raised my eyes as a guy walked out blowing her a kiss as he went. ‘Well hello’ he turned to me, I raised my eyes in disgust, ‘Hi, no thankyou, taken, goodbye’ I snapped whilst rolling my eyes. ‘Suit yourself’ he snapped before walking off. I raised my eyes at Emily who giggled in response, ‘That was my 7o’clock’ she winked. I laughed, ‘Any good’. She cracked up laughing before answering; ‘Amazing’.
I was sat on Emily’s sofa having drank almost a whole bottle of vodka on top of god knows how much cocaine and I was feeling extremely out of it. We were sat quite close to eachother and just spent the hours talking about everything but surprisingly not Kimberley. I had temporarily forgotten about her. That was the thing about Emily, I temporarily forgot about anyone else but me and her when we were together. ‘Oi, you gunna finish that vodka to yourself’ she slurred as she lunged for it. I quickly moved it out of the way causing her to lose her footing and land on top of me. I giggled and before I knew it, she was leaning in but then I found myself leaning in too and before long our lips had touched.
