Infinity *editing*

Chapter 9

"See I told you they would love you!" Harry said as we started to drive off.

"Well yeah considering you told them about me! I thought they had no clue about me!"

"Well they did." he said simply. "Oh, um I have to take you back to your house because me and the boys have an interview today. Is that alright?" he asked.

"Yeah that's fine." I said. The rest of the ride was really quiet, but it wasn't an awkward silence. We pulled into my driveway, and my mom's car still wasn't there. They must have still been out shopping. Harry got out and came around to open my door for me. I stepped out and shut the door. Harry spun me around so my back was against the side of the car. He put his hands on either side of me.

"Harry, what are you doing?" I questioned.

"I love you, you know that right?" he asked me.

"Yes of course I do. And I love you too." I said smiling at him as I gazed into his eyes.

"Good, I just wanted you to know." he then began leaning into me. Our lips met in the middle, moving in sync once again. This kiss wasn't as sweet and soft as the other one, but it was still amazing. My hands caressed his cheeks as the kiss became more heated. Harry's hands moved from the car to my body, as they slowly ran down my sides. I pulled away from him as his hands started to slide past my waist. I looked up at him and slightly shook my head.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"Harry, I'm not ready for that." I said quietly.

"Ready for what?" he asked. I just looked up at him, and he knew. "Okay, I'm sorry." he said. And I knew he meant it. We released each other, and Harry walked me up to the door. I took out my key and opened it.

"Well, bye Lily, I'll see ya later." he said. He lightly pecked my lips and walked back to his car.

"Bye." I said kind of to myself as I walked into my house and closed the door. Kiera came running down the stairs with a huge smile on her face.

"Dude talk about PDA!" she said.

"What? It wasn't that public! Wait, you saw that?" I asked.

"Yeah! Through the window. You guys were like eating each other's faces! But it was romantic. But seriously, I also saw the other part when you pulled away. Are you okay?" she asked sincerely.

"Yeah, it's just hard not knowing if he's that type of guy, or if he really loves me. I mean he said he did love me right before our little sesh, so I don't know." I said.

"Yeah, I get it. Well today, Niall came and picked me up and we spent the whole afternoon together. It was awesome! But he had to drop me off cause they had an interview."

"Yeah same." I said. I was getting really hungry so Kiera and I decided to make an early dinner. We made simple grilled cheese sandwiches and lemonade. Then we decided to watch movies the rest of the night. My mom and sister came home around seven carrying tons of bags. We helped carry them upstairs, and then came back down to continue watching movies. We were watching the whole Twilight series. We both loved that series. While we were watching the third movie, my mom came down with a piece of paper in her hand.

"Girls, could you pause that for a second? I have a surprise for you." she said. Kiera grabbed the remote and paused the movie. What is with people and surprises? Anyway, my mom began unfolding the paper. "Alright, this may make you freak out, but please try not to scream, but today while me and Eliza were out shopping I paid the final payment for you're brand new, very own...................flat!" she said excitedly, showing us the paper. Kiera and I looked at each other straight in the eyes and started freaking out, of course trying not to scream (which was really hard), but we were jumping up and down, cheering, and we ran over to my mom and gave her a big hug thanking her over and over again. This was great! Kiera and I have always wanted to move out of our houses and live together. It was gonna be great!

"And girls, you can move in as early as tomorrow. So I suggest you start packing and getting stuff together tomorrow, and maybe getting it in the flat." my mom informed us.

"OMG! Tomorrow! Awesome! We should totally try and get most of our stuff in tomorrow! That would be awesome!" I said a little to loudly to Kiera.

"Yeah totally!" she agreed.

             After that we couldn't calm down, so instead of finishing the movies we had Eliza give us a fashion show of what she got from shopping. We would finish the movies some other night. Eliza was so cute when she tried on her clothes for us because she would come out of her room and strut down the hallway. It was so funny and adorable. When it started getting late, we decided to go hang out in our rooms. I sang to Eliza, and noticed my voice sounded really good. So when I came back to my room, I sat at my piano and started singing for Kiera because like I said before she loved it when I sang and played for her. When it got to be around eleven I looked over at Kiera who was passed out on her bed. I continued to play, but I stopped singing. I was just taking those moments to think.

             I was thinking about earlier today when Harry and I were kissing and I pulled away, about why I wasn't ready. The truth is I was scared. When I was 16 I went through a period of depression that just hit me because of my dad's passing. I don't know what started it, but I thought that maybe if I found someone, then it would take my mind off of it and kind of distract me. And luckily for me I ran into what I thought was cute, nice guy named Ryan that week while walking downtown. I began dating him, but realized after at least a month, all he wanted was to be physical with me. He never loved me for who I was, or even loved me at all. And one night he took it to far. He took me to this alley somewhere in the city. It was dark. Ryan immediately shoved me against the brick wall and started to kiss me very aggressively. He grabbed my arms really tight, and then began unbuttoning my top. I pushed him away, and then started to run, but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. I don't know how, but I somehow escaped his grasp and took off running again. This time he didn't come after me. I ran all the way to Kiera's house because I didn't want my mom to see the bruises that Ryan gave me on my wrist and arms. Kiera answered the door, and saw that I was crying, so I told her what happened and ended up spending the night there. To this day, I am afraid that someone will do that to me again. It was one of the most terrifying experiences of my life. And I guess Kiera understood why I pulled away because of that. I just wasn't ready to be that way with Harry.

          After thinking for awhile, I started to get really tired so I decided to go to bed. I snuggled under my covers, and drifted off to sleep.

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Hey, sorry if that chapter was a little awkward. But I hope it's getting better, and you guys are enjoying it!!!! Just the usual, vote, comment, etc. Thanks!!! hehe!!!:)

<3Annie