Cruel Reality [B1A4 Fanfic]

The Abduction

Sandeul's POV

I watched on as Cnu hyung filmed his parts in their debut song, I Can't.
Sujeong was in the dressing room alone with her stylist.
Nobody goes inside because Eunha noona was always by the door and everyone is wary of her because of her attitude. She is quite nice though.
I checked my watch. 1 more hour and we have to shoot our own MV for our comeback. Poor Cnu hyung, he doesn't have any rest.

"Yes, I know but it's good public...." Eunha noona walked past us talking to somebody on her phone.
I got an idea.
"Yah, I'll just go to the bathroom." I told the other members and went off to the dressing room.
I slowly opened the door and peeked.
I found Sujeong styling her hair in front of the mirror as the stylist slept on the couch.
I caught Sujeong's eyes on the mirror.
She swiftly turned around, her eyes wide as saucers.
"Ah annyeong Sujeong-ah." I greeted and waved.
She pulled me in and locked the door.
"What are you doing here? Where's eonni?" She asked nervously, why is she acting like that?
"Eh? She had a phone call and I just thought--"
"Please don't tell anyone. Jebal." She held up her hands in a pleading manner and closed her eyes.
I couldn't help but laugh, she looked so cute.
"Tell what?"
"That I do my own make up and styling. Chona eonni will be in trouble."
I finally understood.
"Oh.. Jinja? You did all the styling yourself since day 1?" I asked incredulously.
"Ne. Do I look okay?" She asked.
I laughed again.
"You look better than okay. You look great." I sincerely told her.

Julie's POV

"You look better than okay. You look great."
My heart thumped.
Wae gurae?!
I just looked down to hide my blushing face.
"Wae? Are you okay, Sujeong-ah?" He asked.
"Ah, gwaenchanayo. I... gotta finish my hair." I said quickly.
What the heck was wrong with me?
I immediately went on set to get things over with.

"Alright. Look hurt and like you're longing for someone, arraseo?" Director-nim said.
I nodded.
As the shoot continued, memories flashed back to me.

"Days we spent together. Years that lasted long. You had to go and leave me just when I needed you most..."

I remembered every single time I spent with my family. With the Lee's...

"Can you come back? If only you can. Will you come back? Mend my broken heart. I'll just forget these mem'ries and make a better start... Without you. Without you."

I didn't realize that tears were already falling from eyes.
How I missed them. How I long to just hug my parents, argue with my brother again. But no.. They'll never be with me again. They can never come back.

"The vast sea in between us is just another obstacle. But I see that there's no more future for our world. I can't see you now. I can't hold you now."

Tears dropped on the floor like raindrops.
But it still won't make them come back. It still won't...

"I can't see you now. I can't."

"CUT!" The director clapped.
"Very good, Cj-ssi. Very well done. We don't need another take, you did a good job. That's it for today, see you again tomorrow. Thankyou for your hardwork." Director-nim said.

I hurriedly wiped my tears with my sleeve.
Aish. This wasn't mine, I forgot.

"Yah Sujeong-ah, you did great." Cnu oppa said as Jinyoung handed me tissue.
"Ah gomawo. You did great too." I forced a bright smile.
"You should do some acting, Sujeong. You'd be a hit." Baro cheerfully said.
"Boys, kaja." B1A4's manager called them.
"Goodluck with your MV sunbaenim." I told them with a fake smile still plastered on my face.
I dropped my smile when they turned back to leave but Sandeul suddenly looked back at me.
I quickly smiled at him and waved.
He waved back and left.

"Wow, Sujeong! That's some realistic first-class acting you showed back there. Should I sign you up for acting. Yah, you have limitless talents I'm getting worked up with handling your schedules. You should..."
I zoned out Eunha eonni words.
It's starting to annoy me how they shove it in my face that I was just acting.
I want to tell them that there was sincerity there too. That I was singing with my heart.
That I wasn't fake.
But I am fake.
I fake up having all these emotions that I need to show in front of the camera.
Even off camera.
I fake my smiles, my laugh.
I'm such a fake. I bitterly thought.
"Tsk." I unconciously tsked
Eonni stopped talking.
"What's the matter?" She looked at me through the rearview mirror.
"Oh.. ah.. nothing. I'm just hungry. Can we stopby to eat somewhere?" I quickly said.
"We can't. You have to practice for your next comeback  with Hanjae." She said.
I sighed and just said okay.
I'm feeling numb again.

***
I opened my locker, ignoring the sticky notes and envelopes taped on it.
I know, it should be inside and then mound up on my feet when I open my locker but that just happens in cheesy movies. I hate anything cheesy. Movies, pick-up lines, even cupcakes. Too much cheese gags me up.
And afterall, you need your card to open up your locker. Of course only I can open it.

"Cj-ssi." A boy tapped my shoulder.
"I-I ca-came to give y-you th--" The box he was holding toppled over as another boy collided with him.
"Ouch!" He fell.
"Are you okay?" I asked and lent my hand to him but the other boy caught it.
"Yep. Totally fine. Hey dorky." He nudge the helpless boy with his feet.
"Next time don't be in the way." He said, flashed a smile to me and left just like that.
I didn't care much but I feigned worry to the boy.
I accepted the gift and collected all the other notes on my locker to protect my image.
I swear, if I wasn't an idol I would immediately decline all this.
Well, to be fair, if I wasn't an idol I wouldn't receive any of this any way.

As I made my way to eonni's car a boy stopped me.
Oh please not anothe--
"Hey."
I looked up to see the rude boy before.
"Do you need something?" I politely asked.
"Yep. Can we go somewhere else?"
"We can't." I immediately replied.
He scratched his head and looked around.
"If that's all then I-- ngrfhhh" A handkerchief was pressed on my face from behind.
Shit! Panic filled me as I tried to pry off the arm that held me.
It smells awfully like the pills Chris gives me.
It calmed me a little.
I got dizzy and everything around me was rotating.
"Sleepwell princess." I barely heard the rude boy's voice as I lost conciousness.

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