The diagnosis

Chapter 38

AN

Warning Mature content!

Harry's POV

I first head to the room I left her in. Then I found Niall. "Hey mate, have you seen Blue?" He shook his head as he continued to bounce the foot ball around. "Last I saw of her she was heading to the bus for a shower." My eyebrows pull together. "I was just there, she never came in." Where was she? I asked everyone who walked by my if they had seen Blue. No luck.

Where is she? I start to panic. Opening random doors, until I came across a shower room. Knowing she wanted to shower, i went in, hoping there were no other females using the showers. I heard water running and my heart skipped a beat at the idea of seeing her naked again. Blood starts flowing to my lower regions as I think of all the fun we can have in a shower when she's not crying. But the sight as I turned the corner made all my fantasies stop dead in their tracks.

She sat on the floor under running water, fully clothed. She didn't look like she was crying, but her face was wet from the running water. She looked empty. Suddenly my eyes narrowed and widened as I took in what lay just outside of the spray of water. A bottle of pills and a razor blade. I bolted towards her. "Andy!" i exclaimed as i pushed the items away and looked at her and then examined her wrists.

As i registered that there was no injuries on her wrists, i pulled her into my embrace as we sat under the freezing water. "What do you think you're doing?!" I finally say. Andy pushes out of my arms, "You don't need to pretend anymore Harry, and you don't need to treat me like a charity case. I know everything between us has been fake."

My jaw drops. Shit. She heard. "No, no! I love you okay? I really do! That meeting I had was why i came to find you! My management doesn't like me having a serious relationship because I don't get as much publicity as when they go around talking about how I sleep with a different girl everyday! I've never ever been that guy! But they like publicity so my 'leaks' stories about how I'm sleeping with so many girls. They want me to go back to that so they threatened me and you! I want to bloody kill them for threatening you but I cant. They want us to break up and told me that if I don't break up with you and start being seen with random girls, then they'll leak a fake story about how I cheated on you so you would break up with me. But I promise you with all my heart that I did not cheat and I do not want to break up with you. I love you. Please believe me Andy."

The girl I've fallen for stares ad me with wide, lost eyes. "And I know you are going to want to fight me on this or will want to not believe me, but im telling you the truth, i'd never see you as a charity case, love." Suddenly she throws herself at me as she repeatedly whispers "I'm sorry." I held her tightly to my chest.

"One second." I say as I pull away and take my phone out of my wet pocket. The phone is damp but not too badly. I quickly type one text and then put it out of the water's reach. Then I slid off my wet shirt, followed by my wet jeans; which were a lot harder to get off. Finally, I went back to Andy. Her eyes widened at me. I grinned at her. "Come on, i need to get you out of those wet clothes and in warmer water before you get sick. I reach around her and make the water hotter.

I slowly undress Andy. We laugh as we struggle to get her jeans off, being that they were more soaking than mine were. "C'mere." i breath as I pull her shivering body towards mine and just hold her for a while. "Ya know, I was really hoping the next time I got you naked would be in better, more fun circumstances." I grinned at her, trying to make her laugh awkwardly like she usually does when I mention s.ex. Taking me by surprise, she kisses me instead of laughing. Our tongues almost immediately being to battle.

My heart begins to race as I reflexively pull Andy closer and then feel her naked body press against mine. I want to be inside her right now, but I know I probably shouldn't just lift her and slide myself into her like I want to. Maybe after her first time, no definitely after her first time. I take her on every surface manageable.

God I'm totally going to get a hard core case of blue balls after this. "I'm sorry I didnt come to you first and instead just believed a lie." Andy whispers as she pulls away. I ache to just pull her back and fill my senses with the taste of her, but I know this is probably the end of the make out. "You're here with me now, so it's okay."

I feel my rising excitement press into her stomach and I grumble out a groan at the contact on her smooth skin. Andy's cheeks turn pink. "Sorry." She breathes. I laugh. "I already told ya love, you shouldn't apologise for making me excited." Suddenly a cute little expression crosses her face that i dot really recognise but She leans in and kisses me again. I slip my tongue into her mouth and she smiles against my lips.

I move to pull her closer when I suddenly feel her hand wrap around my length. My eyes open and widen at her. She meets my gaze with a hesitant one. "Is this okay?" She asks with a clearly nervous voice. I nod perhaps a little too quickly because she giggles. "I don't really know what to do." He breathes with uncertainty clear in her voice. I pull her over to a bench and place a towel from a rack in the room down to make it somewhat softer.

"Are you sure?" I ask. She nods shyly. I take her hand in mine and place it around my length. I intake a sharp breath because of her cold, small hand on my sensitive area. I slowly begin to guide her hand in a pumping motion. My breathing increases and I let my eyes close and my hand fall away. I open my eyes as A couple of moans fall from my life and I am rewarded with an adorable smile on Andy's face.

"Slowly pick up your speed." I breath. She moves closer with an adorable look of determination on her face. Her pace quickens and grip tightens ever so slightly causing a moan to escape my mouth again. "Im going to cum." I moan and close my eyes as I let the pleasure take over my body. I hear a squeak of surprise as I explode underneath her touch. If I wasn't rising out my o.rgasm I probably would have laughed at how surprised she was of it. Slowly she came to a stop and then looked into my now open eyes.

"Was that okay?" I nod and pull her close to me. "Better then okay." I kiss her deeply. "Let's gets some clothes on before I throw restraint out the window and take you right here." Andy squeaks in surprise as her face turns red. I grin at her. "But, um, our clothes are wet." Andy stated as she like over at the pile of our wet clothes. I nod. "I texted someone to leave some just outside. Don't worry nobody saw or heard anything that just happened." I continued as I saw a flicker of panic. I opened the door and slipped the clothes in. I didn't mind being seen naked but there was no way anyone else was going to see my Andy naked.

I toss her one of my t-shirts and a pair of my basketball shorts while I slip into my clothes. Taking on a more serious tone I said: "why did you have a bottle of pills and a razor beside you when I first found you?" Andy shrank away from me slightly. She was ashamed. "I wanted to be free. If you were gone I'd have no one and I didn't want to feel more pain. But I couldn't do it. I knew even if you didn't feel that way you and the other boys and Mel would all be affected by my actions. I'm sorry Harry. I haven't been that low in a long time and it was just really scary." I wipe away a tear that escaped her eye and pulled her into my arms.

"Never feel ashamed for thinking or feeling that way. It's not your fault that you've been through so much. I can't understand what you're going through, but I promise to try to empathise. And just know Im really happy and proud that you didn't do anything. I also just want you to know that it's okay and is not a bother if you want to talk to me about all the dark things you think about. I would really like it if I was the first person you come to when you're having even the slightest amount of a hard time. I love you and I will always be here for you, especially when you're not doing okay." Andy's grip on me tightens. "Thank you for saying that Harry. I love you." I kiss the top of her head and feel my heart expand. "And I love you."