A Disconnected Heart (A Mindless Behavior Love Story)

The Start

(Chapter 4)

Breathlessly I strolled my way to the park bench... it was 12:15 I was running a little late. Prince was sitting at the bench with his head in his hands. I never seen him more sad looking. As I approached him I swallowed hard because I know im a softy when it comes to emotions. I then tapped him on his shoulder and he looked up and gave me a huge smile then jumped up and hugged me tightly. I crinnged a little bit at the thought that this hug was different in his mind. "What? Your bestie cant get a hug back?" Prince said to me. "Well yeah but im afraid it means a little bit more to you." I said to him. "Oh..." he said his mood sinking. "Okay so do you wanna know or not?" I said trying to get to the point. "Yes please." He said as we both sat down on the bench.

"Well it all started in Middle School..." I started after taking a deep breath. "There was these different boys that hurt me so badly when I was already broken. It all started with a boy named Jay" I closed my eyes then continued. "Knowing me, that girl I was, I fell for any and everyone, it was just that my heart was looking for like a healer as if it existed.... I felt so low of myself that I felt everyone was way more valuable than me and that I had to go for the least valuable thing I could find. I was so lost, and I was looking for something to tell me about me. Help me find myself, and make me the diamond of value in their life. As the years went on it got worse and worse, I didnt let it show though until it started pouring out of me. Then many heart breaks, insecurities, and family problems turned me to cutting. Curtting pushed to me trying to commit Suicide... overdose, swallowing bleach, bleedong out, and just doing thibgs that would lead to death." I finally looked back at him and I could see he wanted to cry a little. His face grew red and he had his lips sucked in as if he were trying to hold something in. "I just felt so useless, so ugly, filthy and dirty. I blamed it on myself saying 'oh maybe im not good enough to be loved'. 'Maybe thats why no one loved me'. I was a fool to fall for their shit but I did. The boys just made it worst. They said one thing then flipped a cheek and did what the fuck they wanted..." Even I then could hear the rage and complete hatred in my voice. I felt warm tears stream from my eyes as I continued "So one day I said enough is e-fucking-nough. I promised myself I would never fall, love, or date again in order to shield the shattered mess of a heart I have left" I sniffled and wiped my face. "Thats why I am the way that I am." I sighed as my story ended. "Fuck them." Prince said. "FUCK EVERY SINGLE LAST ONE OF THEM." He said sharply. "Who were they to lie to you... to make you feel less than your worth." He looked at me with watery eyes and a red face and stood up. "Brianna" he said through I paid him no attention. "Brianna!" he said louder than before guiding my face to look at him. "What?" I answered still crying looking up at him. "You are one in a million, a diamond in the rough, a beautiful queen and you dont even know it. Brianna Lynne Biggs.... you hear me clearly now, you are outstanding, you are talented, you are smart, you are unique, stylish, classy, everything you are I love... I love your emotional side, your humerous side, your grouchy side, I love everything that is you and I wouldnt change a single thing about you. You arent perfect but as my mom once told me 'Good girls arent perfect and perfect girls arent good'. But youre my sun and I couldnt see a day without you. Now dont you EVER let anyone tell you less then what you are and if they do, call me up and ill kick they monkey asses." Prince said which made me stop crying. "Now Brianna wipe your tears and stand up.... because you are phenomenal" he said to me while lifting me up and wiping my face with his hands. "Th-thank you Prince" I said to him as I caught my balance. "Youre welcome love" he said to me with a smile. "Prince... about you and you loving me. Did you mean it?" I asked. "Yes, of course" he said sure of his statement. "Well we could give this Girlfriend Boyfriend thing a chance for a while if youd like?" I said blushing giving him a wry smile. Prince paused and shock crossed his face then he quickly replied "Yes id love too." . "Great see you tomorrow boyfriend..." I said trying to be cute. "See ya.... wait" he said as he pulled me into a tight hug swinging me around. "Thank you... Thank you so much." he said. I laughed then said "For what?". He then placed ne down and said... "Trying this out." I smiled then said "See you later Prince." and walked back to my car.