I Think We Need Counseling

Chapter 15

John's Responses

1. What was it like in Afghanistan?

It was horrible, bombs, guns being surrounded by death, it was hell. But I loved every minute of it. It's not that I miss people dying but that I miss the action. In Afghanistan I was a doctor, but I saw a lot of action.

2. What were your nightmares about (the ones about the war and the ones after I left)?

My nightmares about the war were about when my friend got shot. We were in the field and were looking for a downed soldier who had called us. We were sent to go get him but when we got there we realized it was an ambush. I ducked but Devan didn't. He was shot in the head and I watched him die, over and over again. What I actually did when he died was grab his gun  and kill all the people from the ambush, that's how I got shot, but in my dream I just sat there and watched him die.

My nightmares about you leaving were just you falling, over and over and over again. Every time I would try to stop you. Once I actually got to the top of the stairs, but then just as I opened the door you turned and stepped off, smiling faintly. I kept thinking it was my fault. In that dream I ran towards the edge and tried to jump myself but it wouldn't let me, I was just forced to watch you.

3. What do you think of kids?

I would love kids, but I'm not sure if our flat is the safest place, what with you shooting the wall every 20 minutes. I am all for kids, but we would need to change some of your habits.

4. What was it like living with your father?

My father was horrible. He would beat my mother for as long as I could remember. When I got old enough I would draw the attention away from her so he would just beat me. He was ecstatic when I got a football scholarship and went to every game, always pulling me aside after to beat me if I messed up. When I told him I was joining the army to become a doctor I got the worst beating I'd ever had. He had to take me to the hospital. When we got there they said I'd need stitches so he went to wait in the waiting room. The doctor asked what had happened I told him that I needed to speak with the police, but that I wanted them to go get my mother. They called the police and my father was arrested. My mother actually cried for the bastard, I had been planning on doing that anyway because I'd be gone for so long and couldn't bare the thought of what he'd do when I was gone.

5. Why do you keep trying to help  Harry?

She is my sister and I look out for family.

6. What made you want to be an army doctor?

I spent my childhood reading medical textbooks so I could patch my mother and myself up after a beating. I had wanted to join the army since I was little and thought if I combined the 2 that it would be the perfect job, and I was right until I came here.

7. If not kids then what about pets?

I think that any pet we'd have in the house would die. I like dogs but I'm scared that if we got something small we'd forget it was there and it'd die.

8. Why do you keep writing in your blog?

I write in my blog because I never want to forget a single case we've ever worked. I love working with you and this is the most fun I've ever had. Also there's the fact that so many people follow me and love to hear about you as well.

9. Why do you and Mycroft feel the need to look after me?

Because you'd never do it yourself.

10. Will you marry me?

So this is the reason you were so worried?! I was all mad at you because you wouldn't tell me that in one of our journal questions you asked to marry me! Why were you so worried about the answer? I thought the brilliant Sherlock Holmes would already know his blogger's answer to be yes!