Chan's p.o.v
This is the longest I've gone without seeing him i think. I don't know, I think one time when we were younger... We went two weeks, 14 days i hated all of those days, just like i hate these days there's only been 8 but damn i feel like its been years, i feel like maybe he changed in this time apart, Maybe he found a new lover who can love him like he deserves. I want to do that again, We used to laugh and cuddle and be happy. He loved me even when i was clumsy and stupid. But i might have ruined it because i was clumsy and stupid. i might not ever get to see the love of my life again and its my fault, i want to fall apart.
Flashback
"Kris could you stop tapping." Chan barked at kris. He put his pencil down and paced accross the room. "Do you think he could have like...forgoten about me? No, no he wouldnt, right?" Chan asked. sehun laughed at his phone. "What is this so funny that my boyfriend forgot that i existed?"
"Your dumb, He's waiting for you at your guys' 'spot'" Sehun laughed at the angry older boy who threw a pillow and ran out of the class room and twords the green house.
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"Fuck ouch, Kyungie where are you?" Chan asked in a whiny voice because he just hurt his hand breaking into the green house.
"Chanyeol?" The older boy jumped from the window cill and into the dark green house.
"Kyungsoo?" out of the corner of his eye he saw his boyfriend wrapped up, shivering on the other side of the green house, chan opened his arms and kyungsoo ran into him. "Babe, dont ever leave me for that long again okay?" He spoke into the shorter boys ear and played with his dark hair.
"Okay Channie, I promise. You have to promise me something too."
"Anything."
"Don't ever break my heart." at the time the answer was simple, it was so easy to say yes to because chan never wanted to hurt kyungsoo.
"Okay. I promise. I missed you so much i thought my heart was going to explode. I am so happy to be next to you, i wanna be next to you for every breathing moment."
"Me too."
"Do you think we'll make each other this happy forever?" Chan asked, this was a bold question even more bold than the first time he said 'i love you' when they would turn 20, more bold than anything because it was questioning their forever. It was asking a question that couldn't be answered then and probably not even now.
"Does that matter now? We're together now, lets not worry about the future anymore." But both of them still spend their days thinking about the next.
End of flashback
"Guys what if he dosent come back this time? What if he never asks to meet me in that spot? I think I broke my promise."Its the same people, they all stare at me and pitty me, they should pitty me ive been shitty.
"Hyung, stop worrying so much and go to him." Sehun says, "We've all made mistakes, one time when i was mad at luhan i went out and got drunk and stayed out all night, i still dont remember what happened, and luhan was so mad and sad and didn't know what to say to me but now look, hes wearing my ring. If its ment to be, He will forgive you, eventually." the eventually scares me the most eventually, how long will that take? I'm in hell right now after eight days what if he takes months what if he tells me he hates me? How could i recover from that?
