~Tomax~ The begining of it all~

My love for thee oft has made my heart to ache.

~Chapter 16~

*Max's P.O.V

6 weeks. 6 fucking weeks without him aknowledging me. My desperation & hurt can be obvious at times. To the boys, crew & fans. But he doesn't care. My eyes brim with tears so I turn staring out the car window. Tom, Jay & Nathan laugh loudly. I turn my head in time to see him lean his head onto Jay's shoulders. I feel my lower lip quiver. I bite on it trying to mask my hurt. Jay's laughter fades as he stares at my red eyes & quivering lip. His lips are parted in shock & confusion. Tom & Nathan are still in stiches laughing bout Seev. I hate this. I look at my hands remembering how Tom's hands wrapped around them. How his fingers inter twined with mine. How his lips pressed on them just before he fell asleep on my chest. *1/2 an hour later* Getting down I streatch my arms yawing. Turning to get my bag I find myself face to face with... him. Brown eyes meet grey. My heart pounds hard in my ears drowning out everything else. Tom brings his hands to my face. I break into a sweat. He adjustes my glasses & with a smile skips off. I let out a shaky breath. The fuck just happened? With a sigh I follow him inside. * That night a few miserable shots later* Looking around the sweaty bar all the girls in tight dresses & guys in tight jeans look the same. My eyes finally fall on the person I was looking for. Swaying to the music with his hand nursing a drink Tom had his eyes closed & lips parted, inviting me in. I know I should look away especially since Jay & Nareesha were next to me narrowing their eyes with dissaproval. Fuck them. They don't know what we share or how our bodies & souls fit together like one. I stare down at my tequila shot with tears threating to fall, reavealing my broken heart. I glance upwards. What is he doing to me?! I've never been this broken . After a while Siva & Nareesha go back to the hotel. Nathan follows shortly afterwards.I look up in time to see Jay who was chatting up a south asian girl with dip dyed blue hair leave with her to the bathroom. Guess he'll be getting some! Soon after they disappear around the corner I feel an arm circle my torso & hot breath on my neck. I don't need to turn around to know who it is. FUCK! "I need you." Tom whispers in my ear. I open my mouth letting out a shaky breath. "Please Max! I need you. Now." He says panting on my neck & jaw line. His hand moves from my torso to the front of my pants. I lean my head back onto his shoulder in deja-vu. "No n-not if you're drunk" I say. "Please! Max, please" He pleads, his eyes large & gorgeous. "You're gonna regret it in the morning" I tell him turning to face him. "Never" He says & then before I know it... HE'S KISSING ME! IN PLAIN VIEW. FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE!! Anyone who looked our way could see us making out but honestly I didn't give a shit. Sucking on his tounge I hold him close by his coat. He pulls away grunting "Lets take this to a room." After a biting my lower lip Tom takes my hand in his leading me out.

***A/N. Thank you so much for all the reads, votes & comments. U love you guys SO much. Btw William Blake is fucking awesome. His work inspires me SO MUCH. He is by far my fav poet of all time. Tomax is perfect. If I had the choice between having Jay (who i love WITH MY WHOLE HEART) or making Tomax real I wld sacrifise my happiness for Tomax cz... its perfect. I'm a gay activist cz I believe that everyone has a right to be w/ who we love. Straight, gay or bi love is love. Deal w/ it. The bitches in my school think that my bestie & I are freaks cz we support gays. Homophobes piss me off. I get really passionate when proving a point. You dont have to be gay to be an activist. So to fellow straight gay activists "Cheers, mates!" And to gays every where if any one says something crappy smile and give em the finger cz every one has the right to love & to be w/ who they love. Xxxxx Keep calm & ship Tomax... cz its really very real. P.s listen to Same love by Macklemore.