~Tomax~ The begining of it all~

Miserable & magical.

**A/N Argh. Been so sick. All I've been doing since monday morn is barf & cry. Food poisoning. Sigh. The only good thing that came out of it is that I stayed at home for 2 days.( Not going tomoro either ) Aauuu!! :'( My body hurts! **cries** ... I burst out crying in the hospital everyone was like whoz that weird chick & why is she crying?!?!???? Sigh. Anyways... hez the update I combined 2 chapters so its loooooooooong (not that long bt...yh) . I sorta cried writing this as well. In case it isnt obvious. I get emotional easily. Peace out bitches. Btw send me Jom (Jay x Tom) prompts please?! xxxx -H. Parker-George ;) xx

~Chapter 19~

* Max's P.O.V* I don't really know what happened to us but little by little it pulled us apart. Maybe it was the gay rumors that circulated twitter, maybe it was all the fans & magazines noticing the sexual tension, the bromance jokes or maybe the pressure just got to us. Well...him. I had to watch helplessly as he pulled away. As he zoned out. As he touched me less & less when he was sober. When he started sleeping with girls again I undestood. But the moment he stopped looping his arm round mine is the moment I knew... I had lost Tom. Forever.

*A year of heart break,touring, partying , hook ups & photo shoots later*

"Max! We're gonna get late, baby!" I hear her yell over the hiss of the shower. I step out. Wiping my self I throw my clothes on. Buttoning up my shirt I pad into the room leaving foot prints on the polished wood floor. She's wearing a gold dress that flowed effortlessly over her curves. I stare trying to process the perfection that stood before me. "Mich,babe you look..." I trail off. She turns her head with her lips in a pout. Tossing her black hair over her shoulders she comes over to me slow motion like an angel descending from heaven. Michelle wraps her arms around me kissing me. My hands move up & down her body. There is a knock on our door. With one final kiss she wipes her lipstick off me & we leave. Everyone piles into the limo. Seeing Kelsey sit by Tom with her legs on his lap I look away in disgust. 1 year doesn't make it any easier...

I've been happy, free , confused & lonley at the same time. I grab Michelle's hand. I kiss the massive engagement ring twirling it around her finger. She touches my chin & kisses me. We make out while the rest shout & hoot their protests. I remember what Tom & I had. <" Everything will be alright. It's just one of those nights. It'll be fine." I say stroking his hair. I feel drips of...sweat? drip from his face on to my chest. His shoulders shake. I jerk up as he starts sobbing. "Babe. Don't. It's gonna be o.k!" I say hugging him tightly. He cried gripping my shoulders. The pain, hurt & helplessness is obvious in his sobs. My eyes fill with tears. This is the first time Tom has cried. Ever. We cling on to each other. I knew. I knew it hurt him too much. Being with me. This would never work. Not now not ever. I choke, sobbing for us. We cry because we both know that this is the end.> Oh his wide eyed gaze. I can picture it after all these days. Here we are again in the middle of the night where it all started. The same bar, with the same old bathroom. Maybe we got lost in translation or I asked for too much. Maybe this thing we had was a master peice till they tore it apart. They were so casually cruel in the name of being honest. We look at eachother & I break into a million peices all over again. Because it reminds me of innocence, back before I lost the one real thing I've known. We stare into each others eyes for a long time. His eyes brim with tears. His lips quiver like that night. The last night we spent in eachothers arms. Because he was here. The first night. Here. In the men's room of the bar. The moment that changed our lives. He remembers it all. It was where I fell for him. I was there & I remember it all too well. He was there the last night we spent together. The night it all ended. What we had was a beautiful, tragic love affair.