Akemi's P.O.V
Shock. Anger. Frustration. Sadness.
Those were the emotions that I felt right now as the words darted around the inside of my mind.
"Akemi! Guess what?! We're leaving to America! Isn't that great! Your father and I got better jobs there! And you'll be able to have more friends! I bet you're gonna be so happy!"
Happy? Seriously? Leaving my best friends will make me happy?!
I doubt that.
"Oh and honey, our flight is in three days, make sure to pack everything you need and make sure to say goodbye to your friends!"
That was two days ago and tomorrow morning I'll be gone, I'll never see my friends again.
I can't believe this , just when I thought that I would be happy again, everything that I tried so hard to build falls apart again.
I'm trapped in a repeating cycle of loss and pain.
And worst of all is that I just can't bring myself to tell Keiko, I just... can't.
Not when he looks so happy as he smiles at me.
All I can do is keep to myself and offer a smile back and those smiles are not fake, because I truly feel happy around that idiot, he always manages to put a smile on my face even when I'm feeling down.
But the guilt, oh god the guilt, every time that I unconsciously show a frown on my face, he asks me what's wrong , but I just shake my head and say nothing.
I have no other choice, I need to tell him, I have to tell him.
So that's what I did, or at least tried to do.
Yesterday I called him and said:
"Hey, Keiko I need to tell you something."
"Yeah, sure! But first let me tell you something!"
"Yeah, umm, go ahead," I said.
"You are definitely going to like this! I found out about a huge store that sells merchandise of some of your favorite anime and manga! Isn't that great?! We should go there next week!"
Wow, the guilt is getting more intense, and the words "isn't that great?" The last time I heard it, it wasn't so great.
And I only made the matters harder when I said,"Yeah sure!" and ended the call.
I can't do this anymore, I just can't keep on pretending. I need to tell someone!
The first person that came to my mind was Toshiro! So what I did was immediately grab my phone and call him.
"Hello, Akemi! What's up?" he said.
"Toshiro, I must tell you something important, but please, please don't tell anyone a word, especially Keiko."
"Yeah! Sure, my lips are sealed!"
At that moment I truly felt horrible, I could hear the sound of my heart breaking for the second time in my life.
"I'm leaving."
"W-what do you mean?"
"I'm leaving for good Toshiro, I'm going with my parents to America and I might never be able to see you again."
"You're joking right, Akemi?" he said in disbelief.
I only shook my head as tears fell from my closed eyes.
"I wish I was, Toshiro, I really wish I was."
That whole thing was yesterday and today's my last day here.
And I still can't say a word about this to Keiko.
