What He Really Did

14) Extra

June 2nd, 2013

"Yeah we'd be in art," Scar began saying, shifting her position on the floor.

"And he'd be like how's your friends. And I'd just be like fine. Then you know he was always like how's Selena?"

"What?!" I shot up.

"Yeah. And you know I'd be fine. He'd always ask about my friends then you. Like you were different..."

"More important." I said more to myself.

She nodded.

"Why didn't you tell me Kevin said all this?"

"I thought I did?"

"No you failed to tell me that! Oh my god thats why you always thought he liked me." I pieced together.

"Yeah I've always thought you two have secretly liked each other but got freaked out by it so you both fight with each other to fight it." Scar concluded.

Was that true? Is it possible the only reason we fought was to hide our mutral liking for each other? Memories of the beginning of the year flooded back.

When he threw my books across the room and pushed me into a table.

When I went through that whole class secretly wiping away tears.

Kevin was no angel either...

But in a way you would think if the girl you liked sat by you, you'd shut up and enjoy it?

But maybe he looked at it more as...I don't want anyone to see me enjoy this.

God guys are confusing.

"You think so?"

"What else is a valid reason?" she laughed.

It was like 2am and I was still catching up on a year's worth of my best friend.

"It's frustrating. Like describing water is describing our relationship." I groaned.

I know some of you girls out there know the type.

Just one question...what the hell do you do?

I'm not too sure.

But at the moment my mind wasn't on Kevin.

It was on a song.

So here are the lyrics to Demi Lovato's song Really Don't Care.

In parentheses I'll be telling you what part of my story that fits in with the song.

And scarily the whole song fit.

Listen to it.

*Lyrics*

Really Don't Care by Demi Lovato

You wanna play.

(how I felt challenged when he wouldn't leave me alone)

You wanna stay.

(He never wanted to just leave me alone)

You wanna have it all.

You started messin with my head until I hit a wall.

(I recall running into Kevin and being like ow brick wall over here)

Maybe I should've known. Maybe I should've known, that you would walk, you would walk, out the door.

(I really should have...)

Hey!

Said we were done. Then met someone and rubbed it in my face.

(When Nick asked out Hal in front of me and asked her to dance in front of me exc)

Cut to the part. She broke your heart and then she ran away.

(How Hal dumped him and I hope he's at home sad...)

Maybe you should've known. Maybe you should've known, that I would talk, I would talk.

(I mean dude I'm the Taylor Swift of writing. Don't date me I'll write a story about your ass!)

But even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

(Like ever.)

You can take your words and all your lies. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh!

I really don't care. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

(I really don't Nick...)

Even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

You can take your words and all your lies.

Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh!

I really don't care. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

I can't believe I ever stayed up writing songs about you.

(Songs and stories.)

You don't deserve to know the way I used to think about you.

(And I hate that I used to think the world of Nick)

Oh no not anymore.

Oh no not anymore.

You had your shot, had your shot. But you let go!

Now if we meet out on the street I won't be runnin scared.

(How I'd always run away in the hall)

I'll walk right up to you and put one finger in the air.

(The last real thing I did to Nick besides the yearbook signing...worth it)

And make you understand, and make you understand.

(Understand how you made me feel)

You had your chance, had your chance.

But even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

You can take your words and all your lies. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

But even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

You can take your words and all your lies. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh!

I really don't care.

Uh huh, OK, yea, listen up! Hey, hey, never look back. Dumbstruck boy, ego intact.

(Defiant ego for Nick and Kevin)

Look boy, why you so mad?

(You mad bro?)

Second guess him, but should've hit that.

(Bet you regret all of this Nick...)

Hey Demi, you picked the wrong lova' You shoulda picked that one he's cuter than the other.

(Kevin is wayyy cuter than Nick.)

I just wanna laugh cuz you're try'na be a hipster.

(Nick really tries...facepalm.)

Kick him to the curb, take a Polaroid picture.

But even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

You can take your words and all your lies. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

Even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life.

You can take your words and all your lies.

Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care. Ooo-oh, ooo-oh, ooo-oh! I really don't care.

*End of Lyrics*

I freaked out when I realized this was like the spot on perfect song!

Changing the cover I think again...maybe I'm not sure...

Thanks a lot babes! Much love!

-Shyanne