Will you stay? - Shizaya

Pay it Forward

Hey guys, it's me -Shiki- (Well no durrrrrr) Anywhoo this message is serious and may help some people out if it applies to you. And if anything, if you know someone in which this message will help send it to them. 'Pay it Forward.' 

I do really hate writing about depression, suicide, cutting, and things along that line. But I thought, 'well I like getting out of my comfort zone. Why can't I do it now?' This was originally meant to be for credit for a class, but now I have a personal reasoning for writing this. I hope this message will help at least 1 person that reads it. 

My dear friends, 

Life may not seem fair. 

It cuts voluntarily cuts off your air. 

You scream so loud, hoping someone will hear 

you repeat please don't look over here, you tremble in fear. 

In school you grow up fast 

you are constantly asked: 

What did you think about that game last night? 

But you don't even like ball, that's right. 

Andrue grade nine, hiding in himself 

had a plan to end himself. 

Did he really understand what his decision would've meant? 

if only he wasn't so hell bent 

thinking he had to be perfect 

that he had to make it so he was worth it. 

But for all you feel like that 

and you get to the point that you pull out the knife, gun, razor, whatever you use 

that you are wrong. 

You are beautiful for what you are

for what you, even with all the battle scars. 

But do you know what those scars show? 

Strength. 

Sure that may not rhyme, but who ever said I had to rhyme to these words across to you that I will try with every breath to try to make you understand that someone out there loves you. 

That someone out there would cry over your death. 

So before you take your last breath. 

Think. 

Before you light up another and pour yourself another drink 

just please think. 

You are beautiful.