Finding Myself

Today.

I know lately I've been in so much pain. That the sight of you makes me hurt but today that all changed. Today I felt like I felt the first time I knew I liked you. Today I was flustered around him. Today I couldn't get a sentence out with sounding like an idiot. Today I felt my heart beat out of my chest because I was happy. Today I smiled all day. Today I laughed like I've never laughed before. Today I felt nervous trying to talk to him. Today. I was happy. I made progress. I saw you today and nothing. No pain, no heart dropping, no tears. Nothing. Today I realized. That I'm moving on.