Finding Myself

The Pain Keeps Coming Back...

You know I thought I was able to forget about you, that being with someone new, someone that makes my heart feel the same way you did with make the pain go away. But it didn't. I still miss you. I like this guy so fucking much. But still everyday when I see you I want to run up to you and just have you wrap your arms around me. I hate that I want that. I hate that I still fucking love you. I hate that I can't get close to him without thinking about you. I hate that I'm becoming how you were to me. I hate this so much. I'm pretty sure you're happy seeing me like this. I hate that I can't hate you.

It's like I took one step forward then ten steps back.....