Love Wholeheartedly | JB| a.u | BWWM

Twenty Five.

When I woke up in the morning, I had a blanket over me and, next to the food Aisha had gotten me yesterday, was another bag. I missed Pattie's arrival last night and I found it sweet that she didn't wake me up. I wondered if Dr. Greene had come in too and whether he had a problem with me sharing Justin's bed. Anyway, I'd been falling in and out of sleep all night, having nightmares and being woken up by my thinking that Justin was awake. Overall, I had a bad night. Nothing had changed.

I looked up at Justin who was still unconscious and I kissed his cheek. I stayed there with my head on his chest, just thinking about how much I missed waking up to his sleepy face and how he held me at night... his kisses in the morning. I missed everything about him, especially the little things. Being here next to him was almost enough. It was better than nothing. He still smelled the way he always did and still looked very peaceful in his sleep.

I climbed off his bed and went to see what Pattie had gotten for me: sandwiches and some fruit. I sighed, not feeling hungry, and I sat back down in the chair that was beside Justin's bed and held his hand.

"Good morning." I said to him.

This time, for some reason, I had a bit of hope that he could hear me. Today had to be the day, I thought. I'd spent my time awake last night praying and praying. It had to be the day Justin woke up.

"Hope you slept alright." I said. "I... I didn't. Not exactly." I chuckled lightly. "But I did like being with you again. I just wish you'd say something or... hold my hand... tell me you forgive me." I stroked his hand and managed to smile. "When we get home, I'm going to cook you one hell of a meal. Then we can spend the evening just chilling with Maya, watching cartoons or whatever."

I looked at Justin, hoping he'd react, but he didn't.

I frowned.

"Maya's very cute." I decided to continue speaking. "She's grown since the last time we saw her. She's... she's adorable. I can't wait for you to meet her again."

After what felt like ages of silence, I decided to have the sandwiches Pattie had brought for me. I carried my chair to the window and sat there to take in the sun while I ate.

This beautiful weather was so against my mood. I wished it was gloomy or even raining with thunder. It was quite hard being in a bad space when birds were chirping happily outside.

There was a quick knock on the door then in walked Dr. Greene.

I politely smiled at him as he greeted me.

"I'm just here to quickly check Mr Bieber's progress." He told me.

"Okay." I said.

"Are you alright?"

I nodded.

Maybe my eyes looked puffy because I'd been crying for so long. Maybe I just looked tired because I hadn't been getting much sleep. I was just exhausted in every possible way and hated that it was written all over my face.

"Hang in there." Dr. Greene said to me. "He's making progress. I wouldn't say that to you if I didn't mean it. Soon you'll be back home with him. You'll see."

I simply nodded my head then looked at Justin.

Could Dr. Greene be right? I felt a little bit hopeless. Why was that?

"Did you sleep alright?" Dr. Greene asked.

"I suppose." I said, biting my sandwich.

Dr. Greene got the hint and stopped talking to me. He did what he came to do and also drew a bit of Justin's blood.