Deep Down

Chapter 17

Chapter 17: Realization

I sat in my room that day,

I was thinking,

And saw just how weak I was.

Words can't describe,

How empty I was.

I did not know,

Why I was scared,

Why I relished at the sight of a friend,

Why I even wanted to live.

When a candle was lit inside me,

And How I managed to blow it out,

When reality hit me in the face.

I think lifes dead to me,

There is not much meaning,

And I feel so tired now a days.

I wish I can disappear,

Just stop all thus madness,

But I can't.

My only resolve,

Is to live a life,

That's devoted to my mother,

If she's here,

I can live this life,

I never asked for,

Nor would I have asked for.

My days are passing,

As if,

My mind was a trash can,

Getting stuff dumped in,

And out.

To my beloved, hardworking, dedicated mother,

I will live for your sake. No one elses. Not mine.

Because,

I love you.