Love & Secrets (Hartbig)

Ch. 8 What do you want me to say

Grace woke up not wanting to get out of bed, she smelled the scent of eggs and bacon  in the air. Chris came in the room with a tray a food and a smile on his face.
"What's this for?" Grace asked as her voice cracked.

"This is for being an amazing fiance." Chris replied as he set the tray down next to the bedside table and kissed Grace. "I love calling you my fiance it's great. I am going to jump in  the shower you finish that and you can join me when your done, fiance. I love saying that." Chris said excited as he walked out of the room headed for the bathroom.
Grace sighed and didn't know what to do. She loved Chris but she didn't know if she loved being his fiance as much as he loved it. She sat there eating a strip of bacon as she wondered what to do.  All she knew was that she had to get through this last day of work. This last day of filming. The scene she had been pushing off until the last moment possible.  That moment was now.
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Grace and Chris drove into the parking lot of the studio. He drove her everywhere since they got engaged. He moved into her house the weekend after he proposed. She felt like it was the right thing to do. It was the next appropriate step. He was always excited to talk about the wedding. Where it would be, what they would wear, what day they would get married and other things that just caused Grace stressed. She cringed every time  he wanted to plan a part of the wedding.

She sat in the car cringing to the seat as he got out of the car. She hate going inside the studio ever morning. It was the same thing ever day, someone new wanting to see the ring, asking if they were excited, and all the girls telling her how lucky she was to find such an amazing guy to marry. Every time this happened Grace didn't feel lucky it felt more like a burden.

They quickly made their way past the group of people wanting to hear the proposal story again. She walked into the studio and the first person she saw was Hannah. Grace stood there in awe. She looked marvelous and Grace could just stare at her all day if she could. She snapped out of it when she saw Ingrid hand Hannah a cup of coffee and a kiss on the check.
Grace's heart melt, Hannah was with Ingrid and she was happy for her. She was glad Hannah found someone who could treat her and love her the way she deserved.

"Grace", Mamrie shouted as she walked over to Grace. "So you need to be in makeup soon so we can do a light check at 11. We want to be able to get done by 6 today. Remember after shooting we are all going out for dinner afterwards." Grace didn't pay attention to a word Mamrie said  she was still watching Hannah from across the room. 

Mamrie looked up from her clipboard and waved her hand in front of Grace. "Hello, is anyone there? Are you paying attention?"

"Sure." Grace mumbled with a blank look on her face.

Mamrie looked at Grace then at Hannah. "Oh that's why you look like a deer in headlights, you can't keep your eyes off of Hannah." Mamrie said with a smug look on her face.

"No I am just people watching." Grace said with a defensive tone.

"Yeah people watching Hannah. Just be ready by 11 and dinners at 7. We're all celebrating the movie being done." Mamrie walked away to tell Hannah the same thing.

Grace stopped staring at Hannah and went into makeup she had to get ready for the scene she wanted to be over with.

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Hannah was excited that Ingrid was there, but she was not excited for her last scene. She has been regretting this scene since the last day they practiced it.

The last time they worked on this scene it almost destroyed her friendship with Grace. She was hopping it wasn't the case this time. She didn't know how she was going to react this time.

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Grace walked into the room and Hannah was already standing in the middle of the. The light was shinning on her and it made Grace's heart skip a beat. She thought she was over this, she made her way to Hannah to start their final scene.

The two girls stood int eh center of the room as they fixed the crew fixed the lights. As they stood their they would look at their shoes and the crew with a sight glance at each other.

"Ok that's everything lets do this people. Let's finish this movie." Gill proceeded as he sat in his chair. "Ok, and action."

"Elise what are you doing?" Hannah asked, starting her first line.

"I'm getting married Allison, it's not like I'm the first person to ever do this." Grace stated.

"But why are you doing it now? You haven't known Eli that long and why here at camp?" Hannah said reaching for Grace to turn her around

"Why? Because I love him." Grace paused at the words 'I love him'. She froze staring at Hannah who had grasped her arm. For a second it felt like they were the only two in the studio.
"Grace are you ok?" Hannah asked, which snapped Grace out of her trance. She noticed the group of people starting at them.

"Ok, let's start the scene over again." Gill stated. Grace focused at what she was doing and started the scene over again. During the second shooting it went great. She was settled and focused on the job at hand.
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When grace finished the scene she packed her stuff up and headed straight out of the room. When she made it into the parking lot she heard someone calling her name.
"Grace, Grace slow down and tell me, what was that all about?" Mamrie asked as she caught up to Grace.

"It was nothing, I just forgot my lines, it happens to everyone." Grace stated trying not to look at Mamrie.

"That's shit and you know it. Everyone else might not have known it, but I know you I know what's really going on."Mamrie said with a grin.

"What do you want me to say that I couldn't say that I loved him, that I couldn't focus because I couldn't keep my eyes off of Hannah. What you want me to say because all i can think about is how much I love Hannah. I have had feelings for her since the moment that I meet her. I didn't know it until she said something and I didn't know what to say. It's to late now she's with Ingrid and I am engaged what am I supposed to do. It's never going to happen." Grace stood there shocked that she told Mamrie how she felt about Hannah.
Mamrie's grin turned into a smile.

"I knew it," Mamrie half yelled. She grabbed Grace's hand and told her "Grace it's never to late."