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by lifiavania

by lifiavania

Shawn's P.O.V
When she hug me, I just feeling my blood from my head down to my leg. My legs stiff and don't want to change place. This hand seemed to want hug her but I was just speechless and in the end I just feel the softness of her beautiful hair. Her smell's awesome. Until she took off her arms, my head suddenly down and we would like to kiss. Our eyes were closed but we realize this isn't true. After we've apologized, tay's expression still looks guilty, I don't know why.

Tay, im sorry i didn't mean to. I know this's the second time I apologize to you. Because I think you feel guilty, don't you?

No, im not shawn. Chillax. It just our lust. Yah you know teenager's lust. I know this wouldn't happen again. I promise.

And then tay run quickly and wipe her tears. I don't know why she's crying. I didn't mean to and I know she didn't mean too. I know this isn't her fault, but this is my fault. Because my head's suck. It just thinking about how to kiss, how to get her and it always likes that. But when we almost kissing, I just feel her breathe. Her breathe makes me almost dead. Her smell, her beauty anything about her make me dead. She's the best girl I've ever seen. Many girls wanna kiss me and say thank you to me and maybe some of them wanna second kiss but she? Instead she refused and even apologized to me. Its so weird. I wanna find out.

I run quickly back to my room and check her out. She's just staring at the mirror and now she's staring at me. and then she just wipe her tears anymore. And I just touch her shoulder and try to talk to her.

Tay... are you okay? It's okay. Sound check's already done. Don't worry I can handle it.

No, seriously im okay. I can do it again. Im just shocked why I can do that. It's so bad. Because I almost kiss someone who have girlfriend.

No, just stay here. I can control it. Here, wear my jacket, hope you feel better. Because its so cold, isn't it? Btwy, I don't have girlfriend.

Okay, thank you. What seriously? I thought bethany's your girlfriend.

Haha.. yes. Bethany's my ex actually. But I never kissed her, hug her haha. Because when I try do that with my feeling, it didn't work.

I sit next to her in sofa. And try to grab her cold hand but.. it didn't work.

Taylor's P.O.V
I cried when we were almost kissing. I run quickly back to Shawn's room with pressing my fingers because I was to nervous for it. I look myself in mirror and try to look my mistakes and what I've done just for 5 minutes ago. I try to fix my makeup, comb my hair and try to wipe my tears again. Suddenly I heard footsteps and I know its shawn.
He told me to rest and he said the sound check's already done. I don't believe him. Because I'll sing 10 or 7 songs with him. And I know at least 3 times for sound check. but he said its okay, he can handle it. And again, he makes me feel better.

This room's so cold. You can freeze in here. I think shawn's really like cold place. Because the temperature of AC in here's 16 degress and it makes me so cold. Shawn's a sensitive person. So, he immediately gave me a black jacket. I accept it. The black jacket that's really soft and warm. This jacket inherent in my neck and every inch of my body. Im so happy.

He told me about Bethany. And the important things that he told me is Bethany's his ex. I talk to him anymore.

Btwy shawn, I have some friends who really like you. To be honest, I had heard your name before but I don't know anything about you.

Okay! Who's it? I love my fans. They just like my second family. So, why don't you search something about me? I know im handsome okay and many people said im the coolest person in the world.

He's just grinning to me and I hate it haha.

Okay I hate you haha! I'll show you later because there's a prom night. Its tomorrow. And I hope you can come with me. To be honest I just have one boy friend and its you! Haha I mean a friend which the gender is a boy okay. No, grin anymore pls!

I'll come okay. I'll. And I wont you be alone in there just like a clown. But I think I have to prepare something. Because like you said there're some fans of me.

IKR. Thank you shawn.

I hug him anymore and don't thinking about sound check, concert and Bethany. We're really forget about anything. When I hug him anymore, shawn began to stretch out his head on my shoulder and hug my warm waist. I can feel his curly hair in my ears and Im happy with that. After that I stand up and I consent to the toilet and try to run. But I gasped and I try to kiss his rosy cheeks and yeah I can kiss his cheeks.