I'll Be Your Forever (Adam Levine FanFic)

Chapter 9: Change Isn't Always Good

It had been a week since my performance on The Voice, a week since I caught Adam cheating on me, a week since I've felt any type of happiness, a week since I've looked into the eyes of the man I still loved even after what he did to me, a week since I've felt like myself. Every night I lay in bed praying that I've just been in a bad dream and that I'm going to wake up any second in the arms of Adam singing softly in my ear. 

Maybe if I hadn't let him leave that morning, maybe if he had stayed with me, maybe we'd still be together, still be in love. Everything in my life at the moment is a big fat MAYBE. I want to go back to the night before and just relive it over and over again, before Adam left me to go into the arms of another woman. But I can't go back. I can't turn the clock back and change what Adam did, and neither can he, if he even wants to. I'd like to think he does because my phone has been ringing almost non stop for six days now but I can't know for sure. 

I haven't answered any of his calls or texts yet, I haven't decided if I want to talk it out with him. I know as soon as I hear his voice I'll fall for him again, but I could only avoid him for so long. Adam is still my coach and I have a performance tonight, that should be where my focus is. I practiced with Blake for my performance, I couldn't look at Adam even if it was for the show. 

My phone buzzed for the umptenth time with Adam's picture on the screen. I should answer him, let him defend himself, I've given him the cold shoulder long enough. Plus, he's gonna be at the show tonight so I'll have to see him anyway. Here goes nothing... 

"Hello?" I said quickly into my iPhone, holding my breath to hear Adam's voice. 

"Lily? Oh thank god Lily. I'm just so sorry! I know you have a right to hate me forever for walking in on me and that girl but you don't know the full story. Please let me explain I promise I won't pressure you anymore once you know everything that happened," Adam responded in a rush, all in one breath.

I took a deep breath before answering. "Ok, Adam. Tell me the whole story, but I mean it when I say the whole story. Don't you dare lie to me!"

"Ok I promise I'll tell you the whole truth. That morning when I left my house I wasn't lying to you I was going to the studio to record. When I got there though, that girl Rebecca I think was waiting for me in my recording room. I had a one night stand with her the night she made it onto the show before I even knew you existed. I lost her number the next day and I didn't care, she wasn't for me but she didn't get the hint. I had been able to avoid her for a few weeks, mostly because I spent almost all my time with you or my team but she finally caught up with me that morning at the studio. She came on to me but I couldn't stop her because no one could know about us! Lily trust me when I tell you I was going to tell you what happened when I came home, but you suprised me at the studio and I didn't get a chance. Babe I love you and only you please please please believe me. I have no idea what I'll do without you, oh god I'm an absolute mess without you to be honest. I love you, I need you, please believe me!" Adam cried through the phone. It hurt my heart to hear him pleading for me to believe him. To be completely honest, I did believe him but I didn't want him to know that yet. I really have to think this through before I let him back into my life.

"Ok Adam. I listened. I need time to think all this through, process this ya know? It's a lot to take in in a matter of minutes. I hope you understand that and respect my decision," I said calmly. 

"i completely understand. Take your time. I just hope that sooner rather than later you'll come back to me," Adam replied in the sadest tone of voice I had ever heard. 

"I can't make any promises Ad. I'll see you at the show tonight, I'm performing I hope you didn't forget!" I expressed in a somewhat cheerful tone, hoping to help him get a little happier.