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If

"If" is possibly the saddest word in the dictionary

Two letters, yet a thousand stab wounds

"If" I was pretty, his eyes would still be on me

"If" I was skinny, he would've held me tighter

"If" I was taller, he wouldn't have lost me in the crowd

"If" I was younger, he would still be in love with me

But no

Instead, I am left with the bitter "What if"s of a breakup

"What if" I hadn't graduated

"What if" I hadn't been so shy

"What if" I hadn't held my tongue

"What if" I hadn't poured my heart out to a boy whose head is still in the clouds

Now

I am alone and I know

"If" we're meant to be, he wouldn't have left in the first place

"If" I am strong, I won't take him back no matter how much I ache to be in his arms