Family is the greatest source of deep regret, anxiety, depression, disappointment, & crushed self esteem I have ever known. It's small, cramped even, & forever staining, like cheap red wine or toxic bleach on your favourite blue jeans. It's irreplaceable but destructive & destructible. It is like no other, no matter how much you want it to be. It's "'til my success dues us part". It's "You have to look @ 'college' colleges, not art schools". It's "I'm a single father, I need to save money for you guys" as my sister gets a new laptop for her online schooling. It's scorn & resentment because you got left with the parent you didn't like while the one who supported your "HOBBIES" cheated and moved out without any notice. It's my hand trembling as I write all this It's angry and sad all the time w/o telling why or how. Ever.
