One non-monetary item or trait i wish I had is proactivity &/or naivety. I wish I was proactive because everything I do is usually catalysed by someone else telling me to do something & even then sometimes I don't do anything. I don't know why. Maybe that's why I'm so slow I always wanna know WHY and when I don't figure it out(almost always this situation happens) I shut down & don't wanna do anything anymore. My lack of understanding is literally killing me inside. That is why I wish I was more naive. Less aware, attentive, conscious. I wish I could just enjoy something without going deeper. I hate thinking. Thinking is mind numbing. And it's stupid & I hate it. Everything I do is shit. Basically if I could be someone completely different in every way I'd....
probably still want to fucking die. Cool. shut up. fuck you. and have a nice day.
