The thing that frightens me the most has to be death. Like that is my #1 fear. I mean not the actual act of dying but what's after that. What the hell happend after I die?? My fears come mostly from the possibility of totally conscious or unconscious darkness & emptiness. Will I still be me? Will my soul just be in dull and frozen existence for all eternity? Or will every aspect of myself go away forever into oblivion and everything I have done in life disappear forever? Or is there a hell? Will I burn forever in lakes of fire & despair for my sins of disbelief & disobedience? Is there going to be a rapture? Will I go to heaven if there is one? What the hell will happen to me? The unknown truth about afterlife is the most terrifying thing I know of. Existential crises. I am drowning in them. Everything I do has the possibility to disappear forever or send me to eternal pain & suffering. I don't know how to cope sometimes. It's scary living in a constant fear of something you don't even know about. Like there is an endless myriad of things to be terrified of because I'm scared of the unknown. It could go on forever & ever & ever... until I die. I wouldn't know how to cope. How to deal with the fact that I will be gone. And t
