Chap 13
"Why don't you take off that hoodie?"
"Trying to get me undressed are we Oli?"
"Maybe." Oliver smirked and Andrew blushed. It had been a few months of flirting like this and Andrew didn't know what any of it meant. Was Oliver interested in him or was it just harmless flirting. Oliver was always holding his hand and playing with his hair and it confused him. He did have feelings for Oliver. He still thought Oliver was the most interesting boy he'd ever met, but he was also his best friend and he wasn't sure if he was prepared to lose someone so important to him. Especially not over some dumb feelings."But no seriously?"
They were currently at Oliver's place with Andrew in his bed and Oliver at his desk.
"I just prefer having it on, besides its almost winter."
"Yeah but we're indoors and you've worn that thing every time I've seen you, and we met in the summer."
"I just don't feel comfortable without it on."
Oliver got up, walked over towards him and sat on the bed beside him. He began to play with his zipper. And although this made Andrew blush even more he also felt his space was being invaded.
"Look just leave it alone."
"But why?"
"Just please."
But Oliver wouldn't budge. This began to enrage Andrew."Leave me alone!" Startled Oliver fell off the bed .
"I'm sorry I-I was just messing I'm-I'm-"
The voices began to chatter and wouldn't stop now
'Show him'
'Do it'
'Let him see what a freak you are'
'Do it!'
Andrew began to cover his ears and kept screaming at them to shut up. But they wouldn't stop. It had been getting worse but he had done his best to hide it, but now it it was like a flood and he felt like he was drowning.
Oliver was frightened and tried to reach out to comfort him but he just got pushed away.
"Fine you want him to see!" He screamed into the air "here!" He took off his jacket and put his arms in front of him. He fell on his knees and began to sob.
"Please stop talking. Please." He begged them but they wouldn't listen.
Oliver was horrified at both Andrews episode and his scars. However more than that he was worried. There were cuts all up and down his arms and there were some fresh and some old.He figured out that this was something not very many people knew about. Although from what Andrew has told him, he was his only friend. He went over to the ground and enveloped him into a hug.
It had been a few hours since his episode and not much had been said between the two.
"So now you know."
"Not entirely. All I know for sure is that you have those cuts on your arm, and I should respect people private space." Andrew chuckled a bit at this.
"I hear voices in my head. I have ever since I was 8. I go to a psychiatrist like once every six months of I'm lucky. Or if my mum isn't too drunk to take me. We can barely afford to go so."
"But why do you self harm."
"A release I guess."
"I'll always be here if you need me. Like you can punch me in the face for release if you like. Just know I'm always there yeah." Andrew laughed at this comments but Oliver began to tear up. He couldn't stand the idea that someone he cared about so much was in so much pain and he didn't know what to do. He gave him another hug and they stayed like that for a few more hours.
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A little too broken (boyxboy)
RomanceTwo broken boys who fell in love. *p.s i wrote it as a 13 year old who knew nothing about anything but lol i'm exposing my problematic past so enjoy.