There's something about her

Chapter Sixteen

Sonya's pov

My head pulsed as we kiss.  I felt dizzy and wanted to fall on the bed.  Then I pulled away.  This isn't right.  This is bad.  He's just a friend not a hook up.  "I'm sorry" I stuttered out.  God I felt like such a whore right now.  I just broke up with my boyfriend today and I'm already on another guy.  I felt tears in my eyes.  Jayy was right.  I am a whore.  "Are you okay" He asked with a voice filled of concern.  "Sorry I didn't mean too.  Its just your so nice and I don't know I'm pretty sure you don't want a whore like me" I sighed as I stumbled over my words.  I have to admit I did have small feeling for Andy.  I wiped the small salty tears out of my eyes looked at him.  I bit my lip hoping we could be friends at the least and not have him be pissed  at me.  I felt so stupid as I kept thinking about the kiss.  He hugged.  I didn't hug back.  Not because I didn't want to because hell, I wanted to so bad but I was afraid.  I was afraid of growing more feelings for him then I already have.  "Listen to me.  You are not a whore.  You are a beautiful human being.  You are the most amazing person I've met.  The strongest and most beautiful.  I have to say that kiss was pretty damn amazing but I'm not going to push you into anything.  If you want to date that's fine.  Your in control." He said.  I bit my lip.  I was scared.  What if he left me like Jayy.  Or even worse,  turn out like Jayy.  I over thought it and maybe I can take this risk.  I leaned and kissed him.  "Is that a yes" He asked.  I nodded with a grin.  I was about to lean in again but then there was a knock in the door.  I got up and went to go get it.  I opened it and there stood in bright sunlight was Jayy with a broken nose.  "Umm" I said frozen with shock as he was here.   I walked out and closed the door behind.  "We what d-d-do y-you want" I stuttered feeling my fear kick in.  "I'm sorry" He says.  "Huh" I said dumbfound by his words.  "I'm sorry I was just under stress and I don't know why I was so horrible to you" He said.  I felt all fear leave my body and anger flood in me. "oh you don't know?  I don't know what's worse.  You cheating on me and then calling me the whore or the fact that you treated me worse then shit at home.  Do you know how many times I longed to feel loved by you again and thought it was my fault.  Do you know how many times I wished I still had all of my blades?  But I couldn't because I didn't want to betray you and make you hate me even more.  You made me harm myself again today just because of your words and you think you can waltz over here and say oh I'm sorry I don't know what came over me?  No more I'm sorrys no more chances.  I fucking tired of your shit. I actually loved you and you basically threw me away and it hurt so much because I still like you but I don't love you anymore." I yelled.  I felt a massive relief come off my shoulders.  I fell in his arms.  "I hate you" I sobbed into his shirt.  "I know" He said.  What am I doing?  I pushed him away.  "Get away from me.  I'm with someone else and I been treated like a human with them." I said and ran inside to leave him shocked.
"Who was that" Andy asked coming from the bunks.  I bit my lip.  "Were you crying" He asked with concern laced in his voice.  I wanted to cry again and again because today had to have been the worst and exhausting day of my life but I had no more tears to spill.  I hugged Andy and brought him to the couch.  I explained what happened and for once in my damn life I haven't cried.  I looked at the clock.  It was already eight.  Jesus Christ how long was I in the woods for.  Just then Andy got a call.  "Hello" He asked a bit annoyed.  "Really?  Shit give me a minute" He said.  "What happened" I asked and he said he had a show at nine.  I helped him get ready and he went on stage just in time.  "We are the black veil brides!" Andy screamed into the microphone.  They started with savior.  I bit my lip.  I loved that song.  It always brings me happiness. 
"I never meant to be the one
Who kept you from the dark.
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember that I'm human
And I'm bound to sing this song"
Andy sang. 
Slowly I began to mouth along. 
"So hear my voice
Reminds you not to bleed
I'm here.
Savior will be there
When you are feeling alone oh
A savior will be there
When you are alone" He sang.  It sprung tears to my eyes.  I never realized this would be my first black veil brides concert and I was dating the lead singer. 
"So here I write my lullaby
To all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try
To be the one you love
I will take this pen
And teach you how to live
But what is left unsaid
The greatest gift I give
So hear my voice
Reminds you to bleed
I'm here
Savior will be there
When you are feeling alone oh
A savior for all that you do so you live freely with out there harm"
Andy sang.
I listen to the rest of the song and felt like I was being loved by Andy.  "Alright guys I have a very special girl coming our way.  Sonya come on up" He yelled while everyone cheered.  I was shocked.  I wasn't even that special and it felt like I've known him forever but it was obvious that we've only known each other for about a day and a half.  I ran up stage and hugged Andy who was already sweaty.  "Everyone this is my beautiful girlfriend Sonya.  She is my light through all of this madness we experienced today.  I know its a little too soon but I love you Sonya." He said with tears in his eyes.  "I love you too" I said and then a large grin was on his face.  Everyone screaming and cheering.  I was so happy until I found a familiar face.  It was Jayy's and he did not look happy.