Finally as i made it to class i relize during math one of my cuts are red. I try to cover it up but Maya realizes shes pointing to the cut. I whisper that i fell down on the way here. Maya glanced over on the other wrist. She saw that i wrote 'ALONE' i wrote it when my parents hurt me last week with a sharpie. I had to assure it was marker, since it was red, the teacher looksd at us and made us shut up. By the time we got out of class finally Maya Of course caught up with me and asked why the heck i hed red marker on my wrist and my answer was simply "im lost" she of course was confused and i walked faster.
"But why do you feel alone?"
"Your not me Maya. You dont know what i have to go through " i say
"You cant trust me Riley im not gonna tell anyone"
"Im- im just tired."
She looks down and shakes her head "if you need anything just talk to me" and walks on, she obviously still follows me though because i see her looking back evrey couple of seconds.
Lunch is the most awful thing ever. 6th grade was the worst year of my life. I had a friend named Caroline, who i called Carrie who was one of the nicest girls i met but one day in the second semester we were talking with her friends she told me something. And it still sticks with me forever
"Can you believe that guy? Hes like a jerk!" Marilyn says
"Duh he hates the beatles like that automatically makes him an idiot and a jerk" i join in
We were talking about a boy that just broke up with Marilyn.
"Totally" carrie said "Riles can i talk to you?" I nodded
"Whats up?" I asked
"In private" she said and moved i followed.
"Um riles i think that..." She stopped
"Wha? Is it about lucas?" I asked curiously
"No but- i just think we spend to much time together and..." She stopped every minute
"What?" I say as all the color fades from my face. Here was my only best friend in the world telling me to leave her alone.
"Well i mean we just- OH MY GOD WILL YOU JUST STOP FOLLOWING ME?!" And with that i said in my most unbroken voice:
"I thought you were my best friend but obviously your a jerk in an angel disguise" my voice was cracking but still together
"Whatever" i say holding tears back and walk away.
It words like that that stay with you forever. Words that hurtful never leave you because of the tears and memories that are attached to it.
And that, also was the first time i cut. Back yhen i had a friend to go through all the hurt with but now, i have no one. And from that whole experience, my whole life, thats why i cant trust Maya into my life. She seems like an angel like Carrie.
Im in science when i wake up from my trance.
"Riley? Are you ok?" She asks
I nod and force a smile.
"Great" she says and turns back Maya glances and frowns
A smile. A smile can hide it all.
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Teen Fiction{lmao please don't read this. I wrote this when i was 11 so it's very bad.} Her parents started to abuse her at the age of 4. The only one that was ok her side was her brother. She never knew how to trust. Years later she starts to get bullied in sc...
