The fault in us (Quills) (Kellin Quinn & Justin Hills) (boyxboy)

Chapter 5

Justin's P.O.V. (surprise surprise)

I wasn't sure, why I was doing this, I wasn't even sure what I was doing here, just that I kissed the boy who was messing with my head lately more and more and who I hated most of the time just because he did things to me, I couldn't handle. The black haired boy who was in my head for the last weeks, who was messing with my dreams and got me a few sleepless nights. I was so scared of all those feelings and thoughts and I knew that I would be screwed if I wouldn't get them under control. I had to show myself that there was nothing to feel about it. It was just this little shit of Kellin Quinn Bostwick who brought me more in trouble than any other human being on earth and I just couldn't allow it that I was like him. That I would be a damn faggot, crushing on a fucking guy. This wasn't me, this wasn't who I was raised to be and I knew that my parents would kick me out within seconds if I would tell him about the thoughts in my head.

That was the reason I was kissing him, just to feel disgusted, to feel bad for him more and more and to know that I wasn't gay. But obviously my body didn't feel the same. My heart flipped in excitement, speeding up the pace it was beating and my lips tingled due to the touch of his warm lips on mine. I was surprised that he got such a big influence on me, that he made my shiver all over and that I couldn't control the reaction to him. I was stuck in this situation and I couldn't help but wanted to feel more. I wanted to know what it would feel like to kiss him properly, intense, to feel his tongue against my own-

SLAP. His hand collided with my cheek before I could do anything else. It stung like a bitch and I was too surprised to do something else than to look at him and hold my cheek in self defence. He slapped me. Kellin Quinn Bostwick slapped me, stared at me with wide eyes while his lips were red and a little bit swollen from the kiss. I was speechless, I couldn't do anything anymore, but I hadn't to. Before I could do something else, he punched me, making me cringe at the sudden pain on my nose and eye and getting me on my knees.

"What the fuck?", I hissed at him, holding my eye closed and tried to ignore the pain.

"What the fuck? What the fuck are up TO?! YOU are kissing ME?! Just because you wanna mess with me huh? Have you filmed it somewhere? You did a fucking photo or something like that right?", Kellin nearly screamed at me and I wouldn't be surprised when someone out of the nearby rooms would look what would be up in the floor. His punch and slap was stinging like a bitch and I really didn't expect such a hard punch by such a small and weak human being like Kellin was.

"No, I just-"

"What? You are a fucking prick and I can't believe you kissed me! Not after what you put me through! Just stay away from me, I don't want to be near you and if you would excuse me, I'm late and you can fuck yourself!" Then he was gone. He was running in the other direction, leaving me alone once again and I couldn't help but sigh. I was sure that he left a black bruise on my face and that someone was able to see his hand on my cheek for at least the next minutes. I never expected him to react like this but it was probably my own fault. I made him to this person and I couldn't be more sorry in the moment right now.

I really wished everything would be different, I really wished, I wouldn't have these thoughts about him, that he never had this crush on me and that he never admitted in front of me that he was gay. Then we would still be best friends and could hang out like we were supposed to do a few years ago. But I guessed I deserved what I got from him. I sighed while I was leaning against the wall in the hallway, trying to calm my nerves and feelings down. It was hard to admit that the kiss felt really good, or at least what you could call a kiss. He hasn't kissed back but the feeling of his lips against my own was enough to make my heart flip around, to make the excitement grow bigger and to make my lips prickle. It was amazing and I couldn't get the feeling out of my head. In an impulse my finger stroke over my lips and I closed my eyes. Fuck this!