Riley's POV
Have you ever laid in bed at night and cried
because you're not good enough?
Counted all your flaws
and felt worse about yourself
and just feel too ugly and alone?
I have.
I woke up remembering the events that happened yesterday.
My dad left.
I wasn't good enough for Lucas.
Great..
I dragged myself out of bed, had shower and opened my closet to see what I should wear.
OOOOH A SKIRT!
Ew. Your legs are too fat to wear a skirt.
Maybe a crop top!
Have you seen your stomach? Bitch your fucking fat.
Maybe I'll just wear a jumper.
Wear a fucking bin bag. You slut. No one wants to see you. No one loves you.
I picked out a grey sweater, black leggings and white vans (Picture above)
After I was done, I made my way to the mirror, to see how I looked.
'UGLY'
'IDIOT'
'WHORE'
'WTF'
'YOUR SO UGLY'
'YOUR SO FAT'
I feel like these voices inside my head are trying to take over me
I can't really be mad at them,
They're only trying to tell me the truth,
They're only trying to help me.
Right?
I kept staring at my reflection,
Mirror mirror,
Can't you see?
What your showing me is killing me.
I could feel the tears filling up in my eyes,
One by one, tears start to flow down my face.
STOP CRYING YOU WEIRD CREEP!
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel like I'm not good enough?
Why do I feel like everything is my fault?
After wiping my tears, I made my way downstairs.
This time, I didn't see my mum and dad arguing nor did I see my mum or brother.
I just saw an empty kitchen and living room,
everything seemed dull,
everything seems so old.
I just never noticed..
As I opened the fridge, I heard those voices in my head again.
STOP EATING! YOUR FAT!
STARVE YOURSELF
YOU'RE A FAT PIG.
I slowly close the fridge, I look down at myself and notice how fat I was.
Have I always been like this?
Holding that thought, I opened the front door, walked to school in the freezing cold.
~ At School ~
Walking into school today was different,
Oh yeah.
No boyfriend or friends.
As soon as I walked in, I noticed Missy and guess what?!
She noticed me too.
Great.
Missy started to approach me so I started to walk away quickly,
As I was walking away, I walked into someone
"I'm so sorry"
Still looking down, I apologized.
"BITCH GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE!'
I recognized her voice automatically.
Jessica.
She might actually be worse than Missy.
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WEARING!?! OMGG HAHAHHAAHAHAHAHHA"
I turned around around to walk about but guess who was coming towards me!?
If your guessing Maya..
Your wrong.
IT WAS MISSY!
Shit i'm done for.
"Watch where your going Little Miss Whore." She said in her usual nasty voice as she was getting closer.
"I'm sorry.." I said quietly
Missy rolls her eyes
"WHATEVER. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WEARING? Missy asks glaring at me.
I don't answer.
"YOUR SO UGLY! HAVE YOU EVEN LOOKED IN A MIRROR? YOUR HAIR IS UGLY, YOUR EYES LOOK LIKE PIECES OF SHIT. " Missy says.
"YOUR TOO TALL AND HAVE YOU SEEN HOW FAT YOU ARE? Jessica says carrying on the list.
"I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU HAVEN'T KILLED YOURSELF YET." Missy adds.
"Please.. Just leave me alone." I say in a soft voice.
"BITCH. EVERYONE HAS LEFT YOU ALONE. LUCAS LEFT YOU FOR MAYA AND EVEN YOUR DAD LEFT YOU."
How does she know my dad left..?
"YOUR PATHETIC AND WORTHLESS THAT'S WHY EVERYONE IN YOUR LIFE LEAVES."
Warm drops of tears streams down my cheek as I kept on looking down.
I couldn't let them see me cry so I pushed past them and ran away.
I kept on running until I reached the an empty classroom.
As I was walking into the classroom, I noticed a mirror leaning against the wall.
I then walked up to it.
They're right.. I am ugly..
My hair is too straight, it's a plain brown.
My eyes are a dull looking brown.
I was too tall.
I was too fat to wear something nice.
And I was way too weird.
I look away from the mirror and walk down to the corner of the room, as soon as I made my way there. I let my back hit the wall and let the tears roll down my face...
Few minutes later, I hear a knock.
"Riles? Is that you?"
A/N
Hey guys! I really hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'm really happy that I was able to uploaded 3 chapters today
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