Girl Meets Mayaville

It's my fault

I'm just wandering the streets of New York. Not knowing where I'm going. Just walking, looking down, wondering what exactly what I'm doing with my life. When someone bumps into me, knocking me down. "Watch where your going." I said angrily as I got up, not caring to look back up. What does it matter if I look up? It's just someone that'll be mad at me as I am them. "Why don't you?" I heard a man's voice say angrily to me. It sounds.. Familier.. Kind of.. Almost like.. My eyes widen as I look up at the man. It is. I don't care. I turn around and continue walking back towards my house, in the opposite direction. I just don't want to be back home. "Maya wait!" I heard the voice call out to me, but I ignore it. Keep walking, Maya. He doesn't care about you. Don't let him stop you. I told myself. I won't let him stop me. I continue walking, when I soon feel a hand on my shoulder, causing me to stop abruptly. I look down, anger filling me. "Don't you touch me." I tell him angrily. "But Maya-" before he can say anything else, I interrupt him, "no. You left me," I started, my voice shaky, "now," my voice low and stern, "it's my turn to leave you." I say, looking down as I begin to walk away. I lost you. No. You left me. Just as Riley left me. Because I'm too stupid to keep you. Not good enough. Too much to handle. Too broken. Too.. You.

I'm done. What's the point of living if I'm just going to lose everyone anyway. My mom doesn't fuckin' care. Riley gave up on me. You left me. Everyone. Everything. Is out to get me. My life is a fuckin' mess and I can't fucking do anything about it. Because it's all my fault.

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