You're The One❤️ ( Sequel To What I Never Saw)

I Forgive You But I Don't Trust You❣

(Chapter 4)

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Nikki's Pov

The next morning I woke up in John's arms, I felt like I was back in Boston and nothing ever happened, he never hurt me and I never told him that I never wanted to see him again, which at the time seemed so damn perfect but now all I want is for him to hold me and kiss me. It's just my emotions getting to me, I can't let him win he shouldn't win he hurt me, sure it was a mistake but apparently so was trusting me, I know that I was the one who had the biggest crush on his brother since as long as I could remember while he was in love with me but I didn't know maybe if he told me sooner we wouldn't have this problem and he wouldn't have had to leave but see that's the thing about John he always likes to make things so damn complicated.

I tried to get up from the bed and away from him sure we had sex like it had been years since we last saw one another last night but that doesn't mean I forgive him and I'll get back together with him, it just meant it's been a while for me so I can't really be the one to blame, I pushed my self up and got scared when he moved I didn't want to wake him up but I no longer wished to share this bed with him, I tried again but this time he pulled me back down holding me tighter there was no way I was getting out without waking him up now, I don't want to talk to him yet. I want to shower and regroup think about everything that happened last night and figure out what I would tell him because I for one know that now isn't that time for me and him to be back together at least I don't think it is.

After a couple more tries I failed so I decided to just wake him up and deal with it maybe I could run into my bathroom and hide in there until I knew what I can do.

I was about to shake him when I heard him mumbling.

"No please don't go." He said I looked up at him and he looked like he was having a nightmare.

"John." I whispered lighting not wanting to scare him.

"No please Nicole I'm sorry please don't leave me I love you." He said again and that got to me, he was dreaming about me I looked at him and even in his sleep he looked like he was in pain was he really as sad as I was about this whole thing?

"I made a mistake I regret it just please say you love me." He said again holding me tighter almost to the point here I couldn't breathe after a few seconds he let go a bit, but in no way making it easier for me to escape from him.

After a few more minute he let go and I was able to get up without waking him I quickly grabbed some clothes and headed into the shower this time I turned on the water first and waited for it to warm up before stripping don't really wants a repeat of last night although this time I locked the door and made sure he couldn't get in.

Once the water was warm enough I stripped and got in I let the warm water hit me and it felt in incredible I was trying not to think about what had just happened but I couldn't my mind kept going to that day, the first time I ever heard John talk in his sleep. It brought back memories that made me rethink this whole thing I had planned this out already if he asked me to get back together I would tell him no and kick him out, that for the sake of our families we should just be friends when we were in Boston but not here, here I wanted him as far away from me as possible but now I don't know. All because of what he said in his sleep. Memories from back when we were kids came back to me.

Flashback

Still Nikki's Pov.....